I think these days I have been blogging less these days, so it means I have less emo stuffs right?...haha...Its a good sign. LOL...Just that I guess time flies and with work, you don't really find the time to seat down and think retrospectively. Unlike the time back in university, or rather, studying time, which had a lot of time. These days, time is precious. However, I still want to meet up with friends and have a good long chat with some of them, especially those that I can open my heart to and those I can be of help in their lives. I am fortunate to have a wonderful girlfriend in Cat and that every week I will still want to meet with her and really enjoy being in her company.
I guess life...or rather once we all start work, things change, how we see things changed. Its like...hmm...akin to changing a different specs, from the freakin poser of adidas sunglass to poser wannabe aviators to transition lens kind. Its like things that were not so important to me in the past, eventually became of some importance. Things that I used to take for granted, now I treasure it a whole lot more. For example, going to my grandma hse for dinner, a simple walk around the neighbourhood, just having a dinner with Cat, just being at home with the family...its when these simple things that matter to me more than ever in life.
These days, I am more used to work now. I think I managed to past thru the initial stages where I guess everyone goes thru after the Uni stages. I am becoming used to the workload and if there is OT, I am quite open to it. One thing I think I can take away positively, is that Cat also got OT to do. So, we both understand each other pain and tiredness, yet at the same time, we really appreciate the time that we have. No matter what, we will make time for each other at least once in a week. That's our commitment to each other. At work, I am developing an Excel spreadsheet which can help to save a lot of time and in a way, forecast the incoming broker confirmations so that one don't have to wait a certain time to calculate things, I guess I left just one small part to conquer, if I can fixed that den this spreadsheet will be pretty gay already. Of course, there are much more things to learn and all, but I can see that the finish line can be seen, and that I guess in a year's time, I will leave this place. This is a timeline I set myself, regardless of what, I have to leave this place. Be it seeking greener pastures or a new environment, but of course, the pay have to be higher than what I am earning now.
And doing so many OT, make me really thankful that if I can leave office at 7 is a good thing. I remember at IRAS if one stays after 6, people tends to be gloomy and hate it. And, truth be told, I really cannot complain cuz other banks had it worse. I am still in a way uncertain about my career path, but I believe that there will be a day where I will discover the path. There is always a time where I will just know, maybe now its not the time. I hope that everyday, at the very least, I feel that I have done something that I can think back and say" yeah...this is a day that so far, its awesome". Be it exercising, work or mainlining human relationships.