Remember what is ur name..that is one of the most important thing in life....in a nutshell, know who u are and never forget it.

Dont look behind, just keep it in ur memories....in a nutshell, what has happened has already happened , know about it and be better person because of it.

Sometimes as humans we cannot be entirely rational over a lot of things, take from example yesterday night...I had to admit I was in a rush I dunno why but I felt that it must be done by a certain deadline. Come to think of it, it was hasty...my fault...I assume that certain things will happened cuz of the signs but signs can be read differently...its very strange that when someone is caught within a matrix, he is unable to see the whole picture and in the past, he is able to fully analyze the entire problem but now he is in the exact same one but yet he cannot see it. At times, pride and emotions do really play a role in it. tired.

Read somewhere that sometimes its very difficult to just tell someone u miss that person or just to show signs of affection, as one fears rejection. there is a song by jay chou ' 开不了口'...it somehow truly say about why people fear it...I also got to admit it, me too am afraid about what the other party will think...is it weird? what will the outcome be?..and all this kind of stuffs. But however I believed that one day there will be someone out there or already beside u that is able to make u do that already or when one has enough courage to do it. As for being worrying about being passive a not, its nothing wrong maybe it is not the time or place yet...anw such things is truly up to the individual...so no use admiring others who are more brave or courageous to take the extra step into unchartered regions...one day for all we know u might be able to do it as well...

Satay, Drinks and.... dieting?0.o

Yesterday met up with ly and kel for supper at Seragoon gardens. in the end got to find kel who is somewhere hiding the bushes near chomp chomp...lol...then ly still want to use my name to let her fren scold cuz another eugene offended her..what de...after that we ate at chomp chomp and we order bbq chicken wings..the usual stuffs lor at chomp chomp. haha and kel whom is supposed to be on diet became the*drum rolls* RUBBISH BIN...haha...aiyah diet too much will become like that de=P...haha but frankly speaking she seems to slim down from the last time I saw her...serious lor!...haha power sia...* bet she muz be super happy if she read this*...haha..then later went to grapevine to grab some drinks...in the end, ok its not really much and kinda ex sia....hmm nect time must go to the one opposite..looks promising though...then we went home kinda late lor..which brings us to the point that if got a car, it will be so much of a convenience* so kel..u better pass this friday man!!!!!*...got half the mind to get my dad's car and send kel home cuz she stayed at amk and dun really have any direct bus liao...then next time go out with the guys can also stay out later=P...hehe doubt so lor cuz we most prob will be drinking...lol...

Friday Night Chilling!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lucky my friday was kinda relaxing, just went ti safra yishun for some waste time *in my opinion* and realised that my bowling now is quite sucky...sianz sia. hahaha...met up with justin and ben at clarke quay mrt there then we went to meet up with ah black and went to eat dinner lor. After that we met up with the jon, ren, mj, jermaine and yan cong...oh and val as well. haha....then we went to minds cafe* after walking around0.o*...we had quite a fun time lor!!! haha got this reaction game with using our hands to replicate certain movements...then every1 got theirs totally messed up...haha We also played this negotiation game and in the last game I was the ultimate winner!!!hehe with $48 million!!...ahaha this shows that I can talk my way..lol..and ren always seems to use the bargaining tool of 'basketball khakis'...haha and MJ and jermaine kept kb about they always kenna kick out of negotiations and MJ kept blaming jermaine that he make him lose.haha...we played till midnight then took a cab home and ren got to send val home lor and apparently both of them overslept on the bus and ended up taking a cab...haha waste more cash=P...in the end reached home at 1.30 and slept about 2..lol...wah hope got more to come...they said maybe they want to go zouk next friday...hmm..see how lor...running low on cash and want to get a hard disk from sitex leh...next weekend....oh and my next sunday is burned!!!!!saded=(

I told myself to avoid the holes along the road, in the end I still fell into it. But never mind, I had a similar experience before so it shouldn't be a problem. However, I can't seem to get out of the hole and the fog thickens, I questioned myself how am I going to solve this problem. Seriously I dunno, in the end events start to control me again....looks like I made another mistake again...i expected the results and the conditions to go my way...its the one that I wanted to avoid...now I am stuck...shucks...again...

I am tired....

'Auntie' came back...I think around last week or so...supposed to meet up with her de, but she never got back to me lor...WTH...now also totally dunno where she is sia. Sianz lor...what is this man...haiz but she is always like that de. Just hope that nothing serious happened to her lor...

Was watching some anime juz now, then got some episodes kinda happen before or rather how the characters react which somehow reminds me of the past. =)...haha...like how i say she was beautiful that time when I brought her to her jc drama show or smthg...and the quirky things she used to say lor. Brings back some form of fond memories man... nah buts its all in the past liao...haha yeah just being sentimental only lah...

AS Duty

Whew..seems that it has been almost a month since I last blog sia=)...cuz i had been rather busy lor, ok maybe not the initial 2 weeks but last week was man! Last week, I only had my Saturday lor...had to book in at 1930 so to prep. store and vehicle for AS. Then went to SLH later on and only sleep at 2 am and got to wake up at 5am...what the hell and in the end never really got the chance to move out due to equipment failure. The following day, finally fixed the bug and moved out...on mobile duty from 8am to 2am lor...what the ...ki xiao lor!!! although its like every hour period then drive out for 30 mins and rest the next 30 but still...its kinda tiring. And my driving not say that zai yet...mount kerb twice and zhao red light twice....engine stall once...of cuz thats over 5 days lah...but still....realised that when I am tired or juz wake up mode, cannot drive...as those incidents happened during these times lor. Overall, the AS ops really show me a lot of stuff lor like security and stuffs as well as other on site forces like the SPF and SCDF teams.


Seriously its our 1st OPS, however its rather screwed up cuz stores and personnel deployment was not that clear and good. In the end, there were lots of confusion and personnel got to rush here and there and didnt receive enough rest. Stores were last minute informed and vehicles were last minute changed duties and all...so yeah it was kinda messy and this is supposed to be the real thing man...anyway glad that it has already ended but from now on I also got frequent standby duties liao...so I can foresee more of my weekends are going to be burned sia...