Some thoughts...again...

Hey so today is the 29th of may...the start of the holidays...and now in the morning I am blogging....haha wad am i doing?? SLACKING lor...lol...later muz mug coz end of the month is my mid-years liao...sianz lor...Actually, is it the trend for peeps to totally forget what they had in agreement with others?? I have been 'pang sa' a lot of times liao lor...ok maybe I do make such mistakes as well....or is it I always take people's words for real...thats why i always make sure i fulfil those agreements and not let people wait or be disappointed...and i thought that it will be vice-versa...however think that like many things in this way, u put in a lot of effort there might be no returns...haiz dont understand why also...

On the other hand, maybe the other party has something on and he sort of forget to reply u...thats very true...but in my opinion, we should be responsible for wadever we do and say. And thats something i hold very strongly on, if am not sure whether i can make it or not, i will not give a definite answer lor...

Come to think of it, the other party is not obliged to return an answer rite??...haha how come I always think so much one sia...LOL is it a good thing or a bad thing??...

Wads wrong with people on this world sia...

Just now was hearing about my mum talking of her frenz's son getting bully in his pri. school. The boy became so traumatised that he kept pulling his hair till his hair just kept falling out...And when the bully's parents got to see the teacher, apparently they are too bz so they had to arranged another day...and u knw wad...the bully actually said tht he didnt start the fight and it was started by another boy...wah guilty sia....and the teacher never says anything about the fights at all to the parents....

That day, Sam. was telling me about her NP camp where sec 2 and sec 3 students are going to be thrown into a jungle w/o torchlights just because of some idiot who wants to get a leadership position in the cca....wad the hell lah...how can anyone be so callous to do such a thing...by endangering people's lives just so to get a leadership position....ought to go and knock her head on the wall lah!!!

So u can see why is some people so happy hurting others? and in Sam. case, why must people hurt others so to achieve what they want?.....with all the backstabbing and everything....if backstab....i can still understand...but endangering people.....thats like the worse lah...like wad sun wukong(japanese version on starhub) will say.... (Its unforgivable!!!!!)--in chinese...

Scandals

Last Sunday morning, went to whampoa again gor project sphere...on the same bus with me was Michelle but I didnt realised that until stop at CJC...then she behind me also dont want to say anything.....dotz....like dun want to talk to me like tht....haha Realised that she is also wearing the same colour shirt as me....still say that she didnt copy...LIKE REAL lor....haha so cross the overhead bridge together lor...then of coz the rest of the guys will def. make noises lor....like wah...lovers shirt sia....dotz....but dun blame them...haha then Soks again is late lor..speculating whether she must be spending time with lewis again...haha As soon as we said that, lewis came in a lorry and wearing like some kid....haha this shows that he is still young lor...LOL...And it was very nice of him to help us book the BBQ pit lor...so must say a very BIG THANK YOU to him 1st...

So we all arrived at the Whampoa area, and the 1st thing we went was for the ICE-CREAM uncle...haha and still kenna the paparazzi who are the photographers who are suppose to take shots of us doing the CIP. Of coz, after a not so long time, we found ourselves at Uncle Antony's house again...and Yao Zhong(paparazzi) kept taking candid shots at us...and that Michelle and Soks. kept trying to hide....dunno wads wrong lor....like they scared of flash....haha and my short was almost torn after all the pulling.....hor Michelle...

Went going home that time...and chun kin kept hitting or rather slapping me...until my thighs and back all red liao...and Michelle still have the cheek to stand there doing nthg to help me....tht girl sia...OUCH...still pain lor....lol....wad a day...

Someone has been bad...

Though its my off day yesterday, but I still woke up at 5.30 am lor...haha see I am so hardworking...LOL...No lah, its just that I needed to get Sam. 's the file as soon as possible so since she had school, thought can take the file in the morning. After waiting for her about 15 mins, which is usual cos she is always late one...haha...finally she came down with the file. So since I am free, thought can just send her to school lah...then realised that there is about 15 mins before she is going to be late...actually can walked there and not be late de lor....well...she insisted in taking the bus...haha so eventually still late...so logical explaination....might as well just PON lor...haha....very bad hor....bad influence*shaking the head*...anw she also got not much lesson...LOL...

After that met another of her frenz, KH...very funny person..though remind me of Ben Song...lol...dunno why lor...haha somemore from montfort sec. the enemy school of st gabs....LOL but found him as a rather nice guy lor....knew that he loves kids...haha just like me...anw later went to Sam. house to study GP...to my surprise, found out that wadever Mrs Loke taught me was the same as wad Mr Rupert is teaching her...LOL...but at least somehow got some enlightenment lor...haha

Feel that her house the fengshui not so good....now i knw most of u peeps out there wont believe in such stuff, but i believe...so there u go...the reason is that her house is rather dark and a bit messy...however if her father has a good business, smthg in the house must be right lor....haha..Maybe thts can also be the cause of why she has to go through so much in NP, with the backstabbing and all those stuff....well who knows...

On 12th May 2006...

Mother's Day Present...
The next day is Mother's day and I still havent go get my mum her present yet...Thot of getting her a CD but both my siblings beg to differ with me....so thts the problem. So actually was about to ask Sam. whether after studying econs together than we go to kovan and get something lor...lol...Coincidentally, she also needed to go town to get the dress for her mum so we just went town lor...went inside paragon...wah...rich man place sia!!!! I totally felt super-out of place...like everything there was so expensive lor...so headed back to taka. Went to the super nice food-court again lor....kinda forgotten its name again....haha And somemore bought the food from the similar store when I went before...haha and did I mention that the jap. food was so tempting!!! Eventually, went to the level one..I think to get the chocolates for mum...and again felt totally out pf place....imagine $129 for a box of chocolates!!! Ok not any ordinary chocolates bah...BUT!!! its still expensive lor.....wah almost cannot breathe....help.....need oxygen....eventually splurge on a $12.60 chocolates...nono cannot say splurge...suppose to be spent...coz Sam. literally SPLURGE $80 bucks for her mum lor!!! My god....she must really loves her mum...well thats what she has been telling herself too!!! LOL....haha but not bad lah...out of 365 days a year...this is one day that my mum will not scold me...so rather worth it...dun u think so too??=)

On 15th May 2006

Her frenz....
Today thought of meeting Sam. after school so that can hurry up clarify some problems and go through some topics coz of a test this thursday...but eventually push the time to 7pm....dotz...but coz she is my very good fren, and I really need her econs skills....so i waited lor...from 3pm all the way to 7pm....wah GG sia....spent the 4 hours doing Physics and Maths....wah....can cause my hair to become white sia....thts ok lor...nothing can ever prepare me for what is up next...nothing...

Eventually, at 7pm I left for j8....so when Sam. wanted to meet me at Mos. Burger...I was like finally after 4 hours of torture...what i didnt count upon was her frenz...yes her frenz...coz it was like I was super-tired and not very in the mood for socializing around...Worse thing they were super enthu. and hyper....and according to Sam. they were supposedly tired....Wah sitting with 3 super hyper gals...was well...a truely unforgettable experience bah...LOL...Also, always kenna shot by people....must be my retribution for suaning Sam. a lot lor...but u know what...i dont intend of stopping....WAHAHAHA....the most just but more 'bullet-proof vests' lor...haha. But, their econs super zai. so defitinitely learn a lot lor...very intensive...but shiok sia!!!

Later walked Sam. home...haha and found out that she is so scared of roaches....haha and to think she is suppose to have a strong character...(-_-)'''...haha okok dun suan her already lah...haha...next time she wont ans. my msgs liao...nah she is a nice gal lah...haha so okay i promise u....dun suan u so much liao ah....but come to think of it...if dun suan, life a bit dull hor...LOL

My thoughts and perspectives on my journey....

After chatting with Sam. and hearing her stories, I began to understand a lot of things on which things are important in life and how narrow-minded I was in the past...Looking back, i dunno why i subjected myself to all the torture and sadness and fear in my mind... where there are people out there with much more pain and sufferings...I also began to understand that I have been so clouded by my feelings that I couldnt even see what was important in my life at this moment and how I should react to the situation that i am in now...

Whenever she will talk about her 'counsel' stories, I often wonder how she cope with the tremendous amount of pressure of someone's else problems and her own set of problems in her life... also and the fact that she is able to bring someone from the darkest places back to Light was even more applauding...sort of made me feel small and rather stupid...coz here is someone whom have seen so many things and weather so many storms in life, and my problems is so small, insignificant compared to hers...

I also began to understood her view and outlook of life, her mindset of touching others lives was too me...its like unreachable coz there is so much you can help in life...to me i always look at my best interests 1st before others, that was something I had pick up along the way in life...however come to think of it...this is what everyone's mentality towards the society nowadays...its a dog-eat-dog world out there...

However, due to me growing up, I sort of forgot the most fundamentals values and ideas that was rather a big part of me when I was deciding how I should be when I get older....to be helpful, to be open, to embrace everyone, to remain young at heart but at the same time be alert in life and know where my priorities lie....in the past i was so worry whether i will even get a GF coz everyone it seems is having...it almost cost me to lose a friend..and I hope not to do such thing ever again...That day, I was doing a compre. on choices and felt that what seperates us from animals is our ability to surpress our instincts and do what we thought is the best thing at that the point of time...so i always have a choice to be how i want to be...whether i want to study, or get caught up in other distractions...

Also, it suddenly dawn on me that the buddhist philosophy" Cause and Effect " have a very strong impact on life and how it operates...What we do in the past, present will determine our choices in the future...when i didnt work hard in PSLE, i got into SGSS, and now in CJC...though i dun even want to be at CJ in the past...had i work harder in P6..maybe i might find myself in NJC...goodness knows....On the other hand, I might not have got to know all my wonderful SGSS friends and many others at CJC too...so in the end how my life turns out was all based on such decisions in the past...and wadever I am doing right now....yes even when I am now typing at this very instant...

So today is the eve of mother's day, though i dun think that i have study much but I now understand some of life's lessons today...I know myself that I may changed in the future...and that wadever i feel now may not hold true in the future...However, hopefully I am able to at least keep the most basic values and fundamentals in my soul that i have now...Whoa...that was some long essay isnt?? LOL....

The path is so much clearer now once the fog have clear....is it the same for u???

For the past seven days...

Saturday 5th May 2006

Whoa today morning..wake up damn early to chiong econs if not sam. will definitely nag at me again..LOL juz like an auntie...haha. Soon, it was 3 and went down to meet Sam. for my econs tuition...and she was teaching keynes theory lah...and the information went past like speeding bullets...eventually caught some balls but not all lor...LOL...About 6 pm, we both went home to get change so to get ready for NYJC drama nite...dunno why i went too...maybe due to someone obvious hints and Fatein was in the backstage crew lor...so muz give support what...haha

Yeah and eventually went down at 6.10 to meet Sam., 1st time I was so early lor...lol and she was late by 15 minutes lor...what to do...gals what...LOL...almost fell asleep sia while waiting for her...haha after that went to Mac. for dinner. Then just nice that KWC was abandoned by seow hong so had to bring him along to NY too lor...so eventually had to talk between both friends...rather difficult lor...coz its like a bit difficult to well communicate between different friends and I was so rather afraid that I was neglecting Sam. lor...

the show got off to a rather nice start lor...i dun think u all would want me to tell u the entire story right?? later NYJC sue me for copyrights law...LOL Eventually, the ending was rather abrupt and I didnt even know it ended lor...haha then suddenly the stage darken. That was when I realised that the show ended so I started clapping along too...LOL a bit dumb rite....haha

After the show, KWC and me went to chat with Fatein and Sam. went to talk among her friends..haha and feel kinda odd lor coz its NYJC leh...wad on earth is a CJCian doing there sia...haha Oh ya I also met Kelvin too...haha hope he was well...he looks well though...haha Later, after teaching KWC how to go home, I send Sam. home and we talk on quite a number of stuff and found out that Sam. is going to aussie dor a school trip...so great lah..though she thought otherwise, dunno why she also think like that, i will glady change a place with her lor...LOL

After sending her home, watched the polls and at the same time was doing my physics FA, eventually PAP won again( no surprise folks) but saw the WP doing rather well, it seems...


Monday 7 May 2006

Today had PE again so i was again yes...subjected to issac lim's torture...so another 18 rounds + 30 pull-ups...LOL later also went to gym after school sia. My 1st time , LOL and I was stunned lor, then there is this guy call darren i think...wah his muscles damn BIG sia...can be a bouncer liao....haha


Wednesday 9 May 2006

During Nexus meeting today, i was disturbing michelle as usual lor, kept whacking her head, but strangely got no reaction..later found out that she was sick, so no mood for anything...how come people nowadays kept getting sick?? Then, francis want to hold a meeting on the space ice cream project but everyone zhao super fast, and he was rather fed up lor...can understand how he feel lor...and edward can still be so nonchalent about the whole issue, its not easy being the head of some projects and people just ran off when they have a responsibilities to fulfill. Already, at this age liao, and still behave like that...but than again who am I to judge , I was once like this too.....but maybe they have their own opinions lah

Thursday 10 May 2006

Today was my school sports carnival, And as expected our class about 1/2 the class didnt turn up again...really feel sorry for Ms Soong coz she last year had such an Enthu. class and now she got some not very enthu. class though she tries to get us together...Eventually, we lost both our games though i had a great time with softball=)...haha and JT was damn cool when he play floor ball lor....haha hey i am not GAy lor....LOL
Zardson tries to get the class to come together for some lunch but eventually no one went too lor..only thad, me , bryan and alvin lor...but well thts my class for u lor...kinda envy T16...but hey life is diff. for everyone lor...so this was my path which i have paved myself in the past, so i have to accept and make the most of it lor...isnt tht so=)

My econs 'shi fu'...

APRIL 29th...the day the devils lost to the blues...

Morning woke up a bit late....no one to blame except my lazy self...by the time I started on my production costs...it was already 10 am...super late liao...eventually only able to do one essay outline and 3 mindmaps on tht particular chapter(which proves to be rather useless later on...) By the time 2pm, i decided to stop coz doubt can finish elasticities as well...( again poor time management by me)

After lunch, i msg my shi fu. then she says she will be late...anything lor...so i went down and waited for her lor...eventually slept on the table for 20 minutes...so while i was thinking on wat to do for the 'lesson'...there was suddenly an EARTHQUAKE...no lor...juz some gal wth a stack of econs stuff and slam it on the table and still can smile....haha( dunno how to be polite and juz tap me on the shoulder or anything...LOL) haha but quite funny lah anw...

Later, she show me the ans. to the essay outline and I was stunned lor...the outline that i have been banking on...was majority WRONG...wah...feel very qi gek...but well we learn new things everyday lor...LOL...then later Sam. still want me to teach her....how to sia...as if i am some teacher....but surprisingly i am able to better understand and rememeber the subject better lor...hmm so such a method really works sia...i think she should go and open a tuition centre lor...LOL...

During and After the lesson, still got talk a lot lor...got to know some SHOCKING stuff...as well as some other interesting things...but i think i might have talk too much lor...suppose to be studying in the end kept on talking....oh man me and my BIG MOUTH...i can never keep it close sia...LOL...next lesson must bring a zip liao=)

Later that evening, Henry popped by my house to watch the MATCH, and 1st time saw my dad so freindly...or is he always like tht...LOL....but eventually the match was a disaster...u can find it in the papers as well as the opening line for this entry...so later on while sending him to the bus stop...i got to know a lot of other stuff..like he got a ex. and his thoughts about some gal and relationships...dunno why I also began to get confused and think too much liao...haha ths always the case with me...but now more or less thought it true liao...hopefully that is...haha

ANW, i also changed my skin for my blog recently..though many will find it gay...but i think it is quite nice leh...anw like the theme lor...and the anime looks kinda cool sia....the guy loks like Soshi from Fafner...nice lor...and there is also a new song too...so put up your comments!!! thanks a lot sia=)