Personal Taste

Info on the drama

Been real hooked on this k-drama recently, of course son ye-jin is a real charmer and she is real good at acting. Hah...and of course min-ho who is funny as well. Now, such romantic comedies always make me laughed because..well...simply its a comedy but being a korean show, there are definitely those freaking emo portions lor. But, sometimes their emo portions are really enlightening as well...so maybe if you have the time, you guys should catch it.

Recently, jian yang says that I put myself under to much pressure le, and that  I should just chillaz for the moment. Well, watching this show really made me laugh and relax, haha...People always says why we are always attracted to dramas is because it doesn't ever reflect what actually happens in reality. And its true, if not why are we hooked on them? Fantasies is  like sugar. To me, I think such shows which have both emo and funny portions are great to watch because I think no matter how cruel or real we know reality is, such fantasies give us hope, to have something to believe in...something like religion.

But like all k-dramas there are a lot of misunderstandings, which can be really irritating because they keep dragging stuff lor...lolz...Oh and there was some twist to the ending as well..but kinda like " My Fair Lady" better...maybe its because got lesser misunderstandings as well as not to draggy lor.

Nike Run 2010

Today went for the Nike run, luckily got no haze liao...so its was rather good. I will have to say the run this year aint as good as last year....in terms of goodies and the finisher items. But the route was a rather straight route unlike last year i think, so not bad there. Got two offers to join muddy or jo's group of friends, which luckily I didn't take up muddy's offer. Well, cuz its like her friends are in their own world...which is perfectly normal but felt a bit out of place....so didn't really want to hang around for too long...in any case also got to reach home by a certain time lor...

I think there are some sectors of the run, I definitely improved. Especially the mid way point portion...but just to think how to last till the 5km part without stopping...cui sia...well, I still wanna aim for my below 1 hr for 10km..haha...dunno when is it possible...haha

Negativity

Yesterday, went out with Jerrold to collect the Nike Race Pack 2010. Was rather disappointed with the pack this year, really cui ttm. Then went to OCBC building the burger king to mug. Well, tried to though eventually failed, cuz Jerrold was distracting me...haha..We shared a couple of things and I ended up asking a few questions about mental health to him. Well he studied psychology, so I got myself a free psychologist...haha

I was talking to him about my exam woes and stuff. Then we came upon a conclusion. And that I was rather very negative as a person. All along I always thought that it's just the exam stress and that I always thought to myself as a more positive person as compared to the past. But in actual sense, I didn't really change much. I put myself down when I didn't accomplished what I had set out to do. I thought by doing that I could push myself even more, but eventually its not the right way of pushing. Like Jerrold said, it should be a willingness from the person. Which got me thinking, am I pushing for something that is not what I want but more of what I believed that I should be going after. Let me give you an example, I want to drive. So I decided that I am going to drive a Ferrari, and I need to work extra hard to get the cash. But now, I realise that I just want to drive and that any normal car will do, without going thru the harsh process of attaining the cash. So, its along that line lor.

His suggestions were to listen to myself more and try to use the right words to talk to oneself. Lets see how lo..lol

Sometimes all it takes is just a choice of words....

Quotes

"fairytales don't exist. neither do miracles.
and i've completely lost hope in love that lasts. love exists. for awhile and then it moves on."

" What is love? love is when there is the right time and right feelings from both parties."

Both are from 2 different friends who are both at different points in their lives. I think there is no definite meaning to love. I always tried to understand what constitutes love, what should one do to be together with the other party...I had believed that there is a SOP for things, just like so many other things in life. Its like I am trying to find all the possible ingredients required for it to happened, only to find out that there is just too many ingredients to gather them all...like CAPM theory( if you take finance, you will know=P)...

 I kinda like the second quote, when it is the right time and the right feelings for things to happen, which is really true and to me, it provides some comfort as well as calm me down whenever I feel that why things happens in a way that is not favorable to me or  me ending up in disappointment.

I remembered myself saying something like the first quote before. Its usually after some kind of rejection or disappointment, and when I am bitter and things like that. Now, I am not saying that I totally disagree with the quote. On the contrary, I feel that there is a lot of truth in it. However, the quote made this whole idea of love to be so sad and dark...which I think it shouldn't be the case. So, do I believed in that quote? maybe. god knows man...haha

To the person who wrote the first quote:

I don't think you will ever read this but I just want to say that nothing is eternal in the world, there will always be rain and sunshine. What's most important is that one must have faith to ride out the storm and learn how to embrace the light that comes after it. 

Telepathy

I think many of you by now should have read the eulogies by the Lee family to their mum. There is this portion that struck me, it was the portion where Mrs Lee seemingly knew when her children are in need. I think telepathy does really exist, I don't think it as a supernatural thing or whatsoever. To me, telepathy is more like an instinct, is when you have spent a significant amount of time with this person as well as knowing a lot of this person, when telepathy really exist. It may even be as far-fetched as knowing something is wrong, a million miles away. During the prehistoric times, there is this particular group of dinosaurs that were able to communicate with each other using sonar, so it might be possible for other animals to somewhat achieve that as well but at a more subtle level. So maybe humans can also do it.

To me, I feel that everyone can do that as well...well to some extent that is. When I was younger, my mum knew I was in trouble for some reason that I can't remember, and I didnt even told her anything until she grilled me. At that time I thought someone might have told her, but I doubt so. Once, my heart felt uncomfortable, and I thought of my mum. Apparently that day, she suddenly fell sick or something. I think to me, the most telling signs were between me and sam. There was a period of time whenever She is sick, I also will be sick as well. And that I some what knew that she was in trouble or something even though we were like on different time zones then.

I came to a conclusion that when you are very close to someone, such things are quite possible, especially woman( with their sixth sense and stuff), cuz they are supposedly more in-tune with emotions. I feel that when one becomes more sensitive to feelings, surroundings and being calm. They are able to read others easily, just like why some meditation gurus or buddhist monks seems to be able to read people.

Maybe telepathy isn't so much about being psychic, its more about observance,gut feeling as well as a certain amount of love for that person and maybe experience also.

Sometimes, people said that kids and elderly are some how able to understand people well, like knowing when they are happy or sad. I think during the prime time of one's life, there is too many distractions that weaken our natural senses to some extent and that explains why when one is a kid or senior citizen, they are able to 'sense' things around them. So, age too plays a part i think.

Reality Check-ed

Just recently, MM Lee's wife just passed away on last saturday, around evening time. I am sure many of you have heard about it. It seems that this is the year where many of Singapore Founders have left us. I am sure that MM Lee will soon to as well...no one is immortal, no matter how great or how influential they are. Regardless how much we always complain about the old guard being slightly authoritarian and very restrictive about our rights and stuff like that, we cannot deny their contributions to this country. I think it is pretty much like our relationship like parents and children. Children will always complain and in some sense, dislike their parents for controlling and stuff like that. But once parents left them, then we began to feel sad, insecure and then realised that actually they ain't that bad that we had thought they were initially were. I think some of us will call this as "fan jian"...lol...

Me, being like the children, starts to be a bit concerned about singapore's future, for it means a new step into the unknown, the era where we have no MM Lee to rely upon. Of course, I am sure that our system that we had created is one that is suppose to be working without him. But that definitely does not erase the feeling of the "what ifs"...lol...I am not being pessimistic about singapore future, in fact I am rather bullish about it...its just maybe that the confidence will be weaken a bit or maybe should I put it that its about time our generation is going to take over?

I tend to be rather skeptical about things, so I am not sure whether we are zai enough to carry on...lolz..but I know a many of my peers whom I see as potential leaders in the future, be it in the private or public sectors. haha.....Have a slight sense of wanting to contribute to society creeping up in my mind...haha...and No, I dont see myself in politics, definitely not with my kind of character. Hmm...maybe more of I want to achieve something and as what we have seen, time is passing, no one is indefinite...

Recently, I have this feeling of " I want to show the world that I can be somebody", wonder whether its because of youth or because of being prideful...haha...sounds a bit crazy right? well hopefully this can spur me in studies as well as my quest about financial stuffs as well. I do know myself that I am very easily distracted in life...so we shall see...haha.