Something that I thought of

Something that I thought of...

Juz know I was listening to a soundtrack from LOTR:ROTK...is at the Grey Havens part...so then was juz inspired to write a short paragraph on it lor...for those who read or watch the movie, will most probably understand my writings lor...but I mostly took reference to the book...

The Grey Havens: When Frodo left Grey Havens

They are sailing,sailing over the ocean,

the gulls are crying out in sorrow or joy, we know not,

three companions stood out staring as the ship vanishes under the starlit night,

memories filled up their minds, so as their tears,shed not a tear they did.

Seemingly, as if a veil opens up, and the grey-white ship disappears into the shimmering stars,

two companions walked away with their heads down, soon they were singing sounds and making merry,

only Sam stood there,

staring where the ship has last been,

he too turned away and took a huge breath of air, looking back...

" Well that's that.."

Boring day sia.....

Damn boring day sia.....

Wah....yesterday wake up to the same situation as thursday lor...again...blur blur de....but I never touch the com. at all the entire day lor...haha c i so guai...lol....okok thats bullshit...went to watch Dear Boys again...its another bball anime lor...but the forward is damn good lor...super cool also lor....especially his passing and the main star..ai chuan..wah is god-like sia...only 1.73...i think and can dunk from free throw line lor...super zai sia...ok because its anime thats why he can do that lor...when see them practising..suddenly it re-invoke the bball drive in me...so grab my ball and headed down to the bball court at ah black house there and started shooting...and shit lah...my ball now is in a damn bad shape..no friction....no grip and worse of all.....no AIR!!!!...wah bounce also cannot bounce properly lor...practiced my shooting lor....felt super rusty...rebounding also got problem...ball handling also...ok maybe thats always the case...can never dribble that zai de mah...so far shot about 100 balls lor from the free throw line...so far the best record was 8 consecutive baskets....wah last time was like 15 baskets lah...shucks damn lousy...so spent about 2 hours there lor...also met Ah black and alloy. haha but they all went to eat breakfast..so all pang sei me at the court...lol...

Later on, back home was Lionel suddenly call coz its like he wanted to play bball and all...haha and he was asking how were the st. gabs peeps at CJC....and I told him lor...all the stuffs and our grades lor...he still sounds the same lor..lol...of coz like all st. gabs peeps, the topic will suddenly shift to..so how ? got girlfriend a not?....haha and we were all talking about wei ren and daryl lor...lol...and he told me that how come all those that went to JC all changed so much...especially those that went to CJ..haha that I have no answer...come to think of it...its quite true leh....from wad I see from the poly peeps, they seems to me that there is hardly any change in them leh...they are all the same as when they were in Sec.4 ....those wonderful characters...haha

I also suddenly felt some sort of hint from him that " Eugene, u also have changed a lot"...that sort of feeling lor...although he never said that, I felt it from him...so...that night was talking with ben, on the way home lor...asking him whether did he feels that I got changed or smthg...he says he not sure coz we almost every week still meet up mah...dunno why though i know that change is inevitable, but am always scared of changes ever since young...dunno whether the change is a good thing or a bad thing lor...maybe CJ made most of us like edgar and me to be more open and more sociable lor..coz of the enviroment and all...haha so for those who wants to come to CJ, this is another plus point lor...and CJC offers a lot of leaderships opportunities and all the other programmes that other JC doesnt have....wah like some advertisment sia...

But, yeah so its true that change is inevitable lor...after what I have been through, heard, seen and stuff...I cannot go back to who I was anymore...no..I dont think I can...but I still have the choice on how to live my life..haha so I am most probably the same old and super lame Eugene lor...lol...Close yet open...haha I think that sort of describe me now lor...shucks reminded me about a GP question sia...lol...

Went out on a date...

Went out on a date...

Whoa on thursday morning, woke up to a bright and sunny day...with the birds chirping....then...DRILLING sounds from the nearby construction site lor....damn those noises...lol...irritating sia...haha so drag myself out of bed and went to eat breakfast lor...then juz stoned again...haha...damn sianz lor...so in order for me not to become a real 'stone'...juz realised that Bryan recommend me a website where can download free themes for my HP...and soon spent the next 2 hours searching through all the various thems from Gundam and Bleach to mountains and the oceans....after looking at all the different ones..settle on Initial D...haha actually wanted bleach lor...but there are not many nice ones out there leh...eventually was late for my date...lol...so in the end late by about 10 minutes...haha i always late de lor...

So I went to meet my date lor...aiyah okok should stop this stupid nonsense..anw its only my uncle lor...haha dun think will have any girl go out with me lah...haha anw very long never go out with my uncle so its not bad lor...well u have the free food...and...hey....thats not the point can!!...haha..that day kelly still call me weird, wah kao wads wrong with going out my uncle lor...ok maybe he is 30+....but he still quite a bit young at heart lor...ok..hmm..except that he is becoming very naggy nowadays..but well thats the problem of getting old..haha yeah so went out and spent the afternoon with him lor...watch the movie "little man" with him...haha its damn super funny lor...but ok its rather also horny show..haiz wad to do, its a USA show lor...not bad lah...laugh till our heads almost drop off sia...haha super hillarious lor...

Anw , juz realised that I hardly watch any "serious" show lor...ever since Aeon Flux....ok thats one not counted coz we sneak in one..haha..have always been watching comedies or cartoons lor...haha Life already so complex and sianz, watch that sort of shows juz make it worse lor...haha ok bet most of ya out there will disagree with me bah..but yeah I always prefer funny shows lor...Laughter is the best medicine lor...haha thats true wad...anw juz thot of an analogy...making a choice to watch a comedy or a serious or a horror show, is akin to making a choice on how one wants to view life lor...ur life can either be a happy or a sad or a tragic life...its always depends on how one chooses...isn't

Came back and went to MSN to chat a bit and surf the net for awhile lor...in the end spent most time chatting..lol...up to 6 msn windows pop up lor...lol...so got to keep changing my frequency rapidly...haha...also didnt knw that Muddy also like anime sia...cool found another anime khaki...liao...didnt know also that she watched slam dunk...haha and like all gals they also like Rukawra...coz he is the most pro. and the MVP lor...ahaha as usual...but also very nice lor...like dunno where she got my HP number and still can say sorry for abruptly ending the conversation lor coz of com. problems...very rare lor nowadays...as most peeps juz end the conversation and juz zhao...w/o saying bye or anything...so I always assume that its normal lor..haha...wah wonder how she get my number...scary sia...one day she can juz sabo me and get pizza hut to send 3 pizzas over and get me to pay..wah kao...damn hen du sia....so guys tell ya smthg ah....never ever.....offend a gal sia...if not the consequences can be dire....dont say I never warn u ah...

Prelims are over!!!!...but there is still a lot left to do...

Prelims are over!!!!...but there is still a lot left to do...

Today its the last day of prelims liao...haha finally its over...but it doesnt feels like a prelim lor...unlike secondary school, where it was so frantic and urgent...but now....strangely got no feelings or wadsoever lor....weird lor..is it numb by all the tests liao...or wad lor..haha I also dunno...strange isnt ??

Evaluation of Prelims:

C maths...(shit! cant get an A liao...or maybe even a B....OMG!!!)

Physics...( totally @%$£ screwed up...haiz)

Economics...(feels ok...but such a topic is super unpredictable lor)

GP...(haha...need I say more...)

Whoa...today went home and stunned lor...haha wanted to play some games in the end laze around for almost 5 hours doing.....nothing...yeah thats basically it lor...haha shucks feel like taking up a maths prelim paper and do it all over again...lol...shucks study too much liao..lol..anw Ben loh still got mock A levels papers lor almost directly after his prelims lor...wah kao..HC jiu si HC..hardcore jc sia...haha and they only had a day break...ok not really considered a break lor...coz he still must go prepare for his mock A levels lor...haha damn sad life sia...btu not bad lor at leasr hit helps to reinforce the content and skills in him bah..lol...

127 Days...

127 Days...

Yoz to all~~ so how are ur prelims everyone??...lol...mine so far hasnt been that gd lor...coz physics is dying and econs only can pray now lor...lol...and tml is maths C paper but it seems like very sianz like tht leh...dun feel like studying maths but go and study physics which still have paper 3 next week lor....or is it got nothing to practise liao...so thats why so sianz and that's why got no mood to do maths...hmm....but later muz go and push myself to do lor...coz I dont think that I am at that level yet....the level where my As are guaranteed...so gotta long way to go sia...haha

U all muz be wondering why i put 127 days...A levels is much nearer than that lor...haha yeah it is..actually its a song from Vanness Wu and Kangta...apparently it is written by Kangta which is based on his own life experience......if I didnt listen to the lyrics wrongly(its in chinese btw)...it is depicting about when he is rejected or break-up bah...and 127 days eversince the gal said that to him, thats is how long he has been suffering lor...wah approximately 4 months and about 7 days lor....whoa...didnt know he young that time is such a person:P...or maybe its juz another marketing gimmick(hmm....)very interesting sia... but overall the song is quite nice lor..though MV is damn stupid lah....dunno who came out with such a lousy script( shaking head)

Yesterday, Siew May suddenly gave me a call lor...super surprise lor....and I always complained to maine that she muz have forgotten about me liao...lol...apparently she got no tuition at that point of time and " sianz si mei si zhuo"...thats why suddenly called me lor...haha and I kept on saying that she tao me lor....everytime msg her never reply liao...realised that everytime she calls will be during my end-year exams de lor...haha how conincidental lor!!...yeah and she was asking me how I am and all...quite long never see her liao about 2 years le....wow....so long already...haha then we chatting on what happened to the other guys ( and gals)....asked about diane and how she is lor....found out that she gotten back to her boyfren and that now she is now studying in a private Australian school bah...haha not bad for her lor also asked about trevor and eric...and they are doing well in their respectives polys lor....then she asked me about Sera...haha of coz she is doing better than me lor ( 4 As lei!!!)...yeah and was really nice to talk with her again...haha or maybe she is a cousellor so thats make it easier...lol...anw according to her I never really changed...which is quite surprising coz I always thot that in secondary school, I was like damn quiet and reserved lor....hmm...but she says in front of her its not like that lei...haha. Always thot that after J1 1st 3 months, I become damn loony...and basically talk crap a lot ...she also says that wo bi jiao kai lang....haha really meh??...I thought I was always like that....lol...maybe now I dont really treat most things too seriously liao lor...able to see things in a broader picture....or maybe not.....

Recently, I have friends whom says that I am too simple-minded and that next time society will be very harsh for me...and I was juz thinking whether will I become like those people with so complicated thinking and always do not trust people so easily...but such a thinking is very narrow isn't it...my mum always tell me not to let ur emotions take over my life and if I let that to happen, then life is going to be damn horrible to me lor...maybe thats true lor...coz maybe I trust people too easily but I always believe in smthg like if u dun trust the opp. party, then why should the other side trust u?...But in society today, its a bit stupid to have such a thinking right??...yeah lor thats why lah...but I will still trust people but I will be more cautious bah...

She was telling me yesterday that juz be myself and handle things in ways that I feel comfortable in, whether it seems stupid or a very naive way...juz do it lor coz sometimes being simple-minded is ok...but as long as one muz know when someone else is using u or have ulterior motives...

She also did talk about other things like the recent promiscuous lifestyle that most S'poreans teens are having nowadays......she was saying that for all we know I might become such a person...at 1st I was like NO!!!!....but on hindsight...I dont tink I will ever know right...I mean the future is in front of us but we never know how is the future like lor...For all we know, we may become people that we dont want to be in the future due to circumstances and all...Now there are some things that I am doing that definitely in the past I was condemning such behaviour...so if ppl keep asking me various such questions like " will u have pre-maritial sex" or " will u send ur parents to old folks home"...seriously if u ask me, I dont have an answer to that now...until I reached that situation and how I handled it then I can give u the answer...thats why now I understand the seriousness of promise and giving people my word...

Still remember as a kid, I always want my mum to get me a toy but she never once said that she will...so I can only keep on waiting till christmas to see whether she got get for me...and I always ask her why dont she juz says that she is getting for me....ok besides the surprise element lor...she ask me what if she promised me and I never got the toy, how will I feel...of coz as a kid I wasnt thinking so much at that point of time...I was playing with my transformer robot...wonder where it is now....yeah so thats why giving one ur word is so important lor...

She also made me realised that sometimes I am too tou ru in certain things lor because at this age lor...and I kept saying that I am so old:P...ok thats besides the point...yeah and that a lot of things one should juz be careful and not get too emo. bout a lot of things and stuff so muz learn how to let it go at times lor...

Actually if people really knows me,I tend to learn through people's experience and stuff and I always think a lot coz like I want to see whether I can find myself yet and should I meet with the same incident how should I handle it...so its like playing com games lah..always trying to get an upgrade and stuff...of coz there are times when I would think about life and other philospohical stuffs...so yeah lor

Seriously, before I end, I think my sis. is damn zai lah...haha she like me sometimes also think a lot but she can read into most people's mind de lor...ooh scary haha...and she gave me an insight on a lot of things ...sometimes wonder who is the elder in the family sia...lol...

Most times we humans cannot see what we have and thats why we are always eager for something that we dont have, but if u juz turn around, u will realise that actually u have a lot of things that many others dont have...

Finally said it out...finally

Finally said it out...finally

That day went to get ben's present coz it was his birthday, and finally gotten a nice shirt for him...haha and he later say it also fit him to a T...woohoo...1st time buy shirt and 1st time managed to get his size right...lol...damn happy...anw that shirt was also very nice lor...shucks thought of getting one for myself as well lor...too bad the sale wont last for long lor...haha

That day, after tuition went back and got Sam. to call me...coz wanted to talk to her...and so coincidence that her pet hamster juz 'passed away'..so yeah it was very saddening for her...dunno why when she pressed me to tell her whats wrong with me, and then I said it all out...the last time I did that was also around 12...shucks always that timing de lor...haha but seriously lah it was a rather amusing yet unforgettable experience...and only she can think of that..lol...and I was like hiding in the kitchen chatting with her....behind me is a washing machine and was surrounded by clothes, so it was really surprising to see my bro. came out and said that I was talking too loudly...and I thought I was actually whispering liao leh...or is it that I always talk very loud...hmm...maybe...haha yeah so talk for 2 hours bah...so it was ok not so bad lor...the longest conversation I had on the phone was like 4 hours lah..with a guy who was suffering from constant rejections by a gal..hmm....thats like so long ago liao...

Hopefully, by saying it out that I am able to concentrate better in my studies...but wont deny that there will surely be at times some distractions lor...so yeah lor...but was talking with her yesterday, after sending her fren home, that I realised that I have not been seeing things in a broader picture for a long time...maybe I havent mature yet bah and all...thats y so late then realised lor...haha and that I have been stagnant for quite sometime...she told me to juz be myself and handle things in my own way lor..thats wat she likes....and come to think of it..yeah its true lah coz I kenna swayed by others that I was caught off balance...and yeah she was really nice..did something totally unexpected lor..yeah was really touching and heart-warming lor...and it gives the courage and belief to carry on with my life...yeah so...its really nice lor...if u want to put in that sense lor...yeah so its back to mugging liao=)

" Although I didnt get the answer yet, but I will be waiting for the day U will tell me...so dun worry, juz take ur time...be it for months or years...I will wait".....actually I know saying this is very easy and it is nothing compared to actually doing it...yeah but I still try and do my best lor=D

Do you believe in fate?

Do you believe in fate?

Yesterday was juz chatting with Sam. and juz briefly touched on this topic...okay its not so brief...rather in depth...lol...yeah. Do u sometimes wonder why u can get along so well with someone even though u never knew that person before?...then do u ever wonder why some people tried so hard at something and still never be able to achieve it?...Of course, most people will says that the person never try hard enough...but ceteris paribus, lets us look at the real extreme cases...a guy jio a gal for 6 years...ok make it 4...but why is he never successful??...he is not so any pia kia or ah beng, he is decent, hardworking and overall ...erm....nice...yeah so why he wasnt successful?? But suddenly within a year he got another girlfriend already...wow look at the huge contrast sia...so is this what we termed as Fate??...it seems very mystical and stuff that a lot things in life happen without a valid reason...isnt it very intriguing...but I still feel that alhtough fate and destiny seems to map out our lives for us...however, we should not totally juz let go of our lives and let fate dictates our 100 years...it is our decisions that ultimately creates out destiny or fate..it is our choices that makes each individual's destiny...but of coz those proponents for fate will agrue that dont fate also decide our choices thats why we follow very different path from others...haha so now we are back at square one again...lol...so actually feels that such topics are very hypothetical and is based on what one really believes in and one's mindset...thats why Aristotle and Darwin's theories are not totally true though there is some truth in it....

Oh man...feels like writing a GP essay...OMG...lol...but juz feels great to write some cheem stuff every now and then...de-stress mah...lol....back to mugging lo=)

Something that I thought of...

Something that I thought of...

She was leaning on me, oblivious to everything that is passing. The sun sets, and the night passes...under the stars she is leaning against me, in a deep slumber. I look out towards the night, the stars, thinking was everything worthwhile??...she was happily against me...I can hear her breathing softly...Does she knows how I feel about her?...As I sat there, shielding her from the wind and dusts, how does she treat me as??...A very good friend or someone whom she can depend on her entire life...When will she give me that answer?...only time will tell...in the meantime, I will keep my promise of being there for her whenever she needs me...till the end of time...but I am juz glad to have her behind me...right now time seems to be non-existent...and slowly I find myself smiling=)....

Actually, this is juz something that I thought of when I look at an anime picture that my fren sent to me...if it is rather sianz and depressing, paiseh lah...haha I will try to think of another more happy paragraph for it lor..lol...Anw the anime photo depicts a gal leaning on the guy's back. She was sleeping while he was staring into the sky...but he doesnt look like he was smiling..so thats why I thought of such a depressing paragraph lor...haha...or maybe its juz reflects how I am feeling right now...hmmm...

Updates...

Updates...

Pre-lims are approaching but it seems that I havent reach the level of mugging that I was expected yet...and I dont seem very urgent too...OMG....is it that I think I am ready or not...shucks man...hmm....dunno lah I think for now at least juz try to mug every day lor...haha lol... this weekend wish: to finish up the last 2 chapter notes for econs...so far today juz did my RJC paper for tuition finsh!!! yeah!!! but....nthg else liao...LOL....so again rather slack...but from monday onwards its prelims papers all the way liao...hoping my strategy works sia!!!!...haha..So have to do whatever I can do now to "stop the boat from sinking, and start rowing"=)...

I have been officially labled as a paedophile, a Garfield....OMG.....from mashimaro to patrick the starfish to Garfield the cat...( shaking head)...why cant anyone say...shuai ge....lol...okok was jkjkjk...haha amazing sia how many personalties that people can think of u...shocking man