Random Mish Mash

 So recently, I have been coming across articles or Youtube videos about having a life outside of work. I think it is pretty important that we all have something else besides work that dominates our life. I mean unless of course, your career is no longer considered work, then it's a different story. 

Been listening to an audiobook titled 4000 Weeks by Oliver Burkeman, where the gist is that we all should be intentional with every hour that we have. Couple with all the doom scrolling and time spent dwelling in Negative thoughts, or even doing things that one may not agree with but social norms dictate so, all these actually takes up our 4000 weeks of our life. Not only the short time span we have, everyday we face the possibility of ending up with less than 4000 weeks or even so 0 weeks. So not only we have to be intentional, we have to also approach things that we might never be able to have any time in the future. There is only so much things that you can put things off until you have more time. In a nutshell, don't waste time on things that don't create any value to your life. 

Random fact. Do you know that I am like a closet singer ? haha...because I never like to sing in front of people or a large crowds. But at home, I like to just turn on Youtube and sing to songs that I vibe with. Mostly J-pop or K-pop, not mandarin songs though..haha So recently been rediscovering Utada Hikaru. Oh and also I recently like to listen to Jazz and Lo-Fi music. 

 I know that since the start of the year, I kept harping to Oscar( MNL team) that I want to be promoted and be a supervisor since I also want to catch up to the rest of my own team as well as I also want the extra money with the house upcoming. In the end, I think the team decide to hire an external supervisor and now I have to also train her a bit. So in the end, its a bit like I don't think I will have an opening for supervisor again because of how lean the team is. I don't think there will be any more promotions for the year to be honest. Regardless on how well I do, but maybe I can show more supervisor stuffs but I cant see why I should do extra things and in the end its not rewarded. I probably will raise it up to my AVP during one on ones...but at least I tried that path. So now my target is more like, hopefully I can get a pay raise..that's the minimum I hope I can get.

Probably should start looking for other roles as well. 

So far, the vibe in Citco is not as bad as BNP when it was towards the end. But now with the upcoming house and I see that Cat is finding it much tougher at work, I do want to have a higher pay but of course not at the expense of my mental health. I think if I sacrifice my mental health, the overall costs will be higher. 

So lets see how life takes me. 

Snippets after seemingly an overly charged General Elections

I never really fully connect with the whole charged environment about elections with different political parties trying to rile up the people. Like you feel that people are not happy with the current incumbent and that it feels like the masses would rather have popular policies right now and to forgo the future. Also, like based on the rally turnouts and the comments online that it feels that the PAP has lost the middle income group of the populations. I personally don't feel like the current group of ministers are that bad or rather it felt like this group were more on the ground then previous governments ; it might be a generational thing I don't know so when I hear or see such comments online, it was pretty alarming to me.

Even though I don't stay at Punggol but hearing good stuffs about Sun Xue Ling and of course if DPM Gan is really that important, I don't think it's worth sacrificing these 2 for additional 4 opposition voices but well weirder things have happened in the world, so one never knows. As the time goes by, it kinda dawn on to me that since I have no control over what goes on there, in the end, regardless whether this election turns either direction, its up to myself to figure a way out to survive and thrive in such a society. Of course if my ideal scenario plays out, then its good but if the worst case scenario plays out, then its up to myself to adapt and survive. I feel that maybe in life in general, I should be more confident about my skills and adaptability. I will also free up more mental space in my mind and not be in a constant flight or fly phase.

Of course, in the end, the silent majority is still happy with the current incumbent and unlike other countries, whatever we hear on the street or online or rallies, it doesn't translate to votes. 

A lot of times, during past elections or when things don't really end up as what I had hope, I always will think that the worst thing has happened and that I should double down and be more wary about each turns and twists going forward. Or maybe I will feel that I need to just look elsewhere and give up hope on whatever current plans that we have.