Sometimes I just wonder why my life turns out in such a way... don't u think about urs as well?

I feel like nowadays I am becoming quite quick to temper..or rather how to say easily agitated lor...is it because nowadays as one grows up , one tends to expect the same or rather a certain level of standard from other people ?... or is it just me?

MUST I ALWAYS BE THE ONE DOING THESE DOING THAT...

WHY CANT IT BE YOU...

I KNOW ITS JUST YOU BUT....

AFTER SO LONG, U SHOULD KNOW HOW WORRIED I GET AT TIMES...

Don't bother about me...I am just releasing some anger only...haiz forget it bah...just forget it.

10 more days to dec. 15!!!!

then I will be a 1-year soldier liao!!!!

... 375 days to ORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Raining....sianz

I think I overspend for this month liao...shit..now muz scrimp the next month and to think I will be having a lot of leaves and my overseas trip...shucks...lol. Maybe I shouldnt have bought the PSP game liao...hmm..but what's done is done liao lor...lol...actually this week for me have been rather slack and in some way I wasted my 1.5 day leave...sianz...lol...but wadever lor. This friday is also my FTT liao!!! AHHH....hopefully can pass lor, seriously but if not, then juz retake bah. But like that I will go for my practical soon liao, won't bother waiting liao...

So far today at home, never really do anything much lah...juz playing my PSP as well as..hmm...using the Com. Anw the whole day has been raining sia...and everytime it rains I will get emo. wth.>.<>

Recently, I felt kinda bored again...so was wondering whether should I start re-studying e-maths and a-maths so to give tuition as well as to earn extra cash to pay for my driving fees lor. Then whenever I start thinking about how to get contacts as well as studying again...I lazy sia...wth...always like that de...sheesh...better change my thinking sia!!! haha but 说得容易...lol

Yesterday, dreamt of sam, which is kinda unexpected because it has already been some time since I last dreamt about her. And whenever I dream about her, its means that she is in some kind of trouble or sick lor. However this time, I felt that she was happy...but is it so...dunno lah cuz this time somehow we were playing catch and in the end couldnt find her, then I did smthg to draw her out and we had a good laugh at it. then we just sat down and chat as usual...then I wake up..hmm...wondering whether did this got anything to do with the fact that she suddenly disappeared again and I was kinda a bit angry at her for just MIA as usual...hmm...maybe lor...lol..realised that dreams are complicated stuffs...best not to be too bothered by it, if not will become like muddy again...lol...okok...better dun say so much=p

Today, I was reading my archives and realised that already 3 years had passed and so many incidents as well as events had happened in my life which had changed me to the person I am today as well as to remind me that I am already 19th !!!!! OMG!!!! haha...and of course NS. How to miss that out man! " Knock it down!!!", " FALL IN!!!!" , "£$%^&@" ...oks got a bit carried away=P....LOL...and come to think of it, I think computer or wadever games don't really appeal to me liao as long as they can waste time as well as maybe provide some adrenaline or thinking games..hmm..maybe should have gotten a DS instead.....lol...but now not enough cash liao...must Saved!!!!

To kelly oba-san, who ask her to call me uncle!! I also not that old lor=P...lol...say she slim down and now say I old!! haha...just send me the blog skin u want( codes and everything..think juz the blogskins page can liao and ur password then I do for u lor)....payment is= hmm...will tell u next time...

Remember what is ur name..that is one of the most important thing in life....in a nutshell, know who u are and never forget it.

Dont look behind, just keep it in ur memories....in a nutshell, what has happened has already happened , know about it and be better person because of it.

Sometimes as humans we cannot be entirely rational over a lot of things, take from example yesterday night...I had to admit I was in a rush I dunno why but I felt that it must be done by a certain deadline. Come to think of it, it was hasty...my fault...I assume that certain things will happened cuz of the signs but signs can be read differently...its very strange that when someone is caught within a matrix, he is unable to see the whole picture and in the past, he is able to fully analyze the entire problem but now he is in the exact same one but yet he cannot see it. At times, pride and emotions do really play a role in it. tired.

Read somewhere that sometimes its very difficult to just tell someone u miss that person or just to show signs of affection, as one fears rejection. there is a song by jay chou ' 开不了口'...it somehow truly say about why people fear it...I also got to admit it, me too am afraid about what the other party will think...is it weird? what will the outcome be?..and all this kind of stuffs. But however I believed that one day there will be someone out there or already beside u that is able to make u do that already or when one has enough courage to do it. As for being worrying about being passive a not, its nothing wrong maybe it is not the time or place yet...anw such things is truly up to the individual...so no use admiring others who are more brave or courageous to take the extra step into unchartered regions...one day for all we know u might be able to do it as well...

Satay, Drinks and.... dieting?0.o

Yesterday met up with ly and kel for supper at Seragoon gardens. in the end got to find kel who is somewhere hiding the bushes near chomp chomp...lol...then ly still want to use my name to let her fren scold cuz another eugene offended her..what de...after that we ate at chomp chomp and we order bbq chicken wings..the usual stuffs lor at chomp chomp. haha and kel whom is supposed to be on diet became the*drum rolls* RUBBISH BIN...haha...aiyah diet too much will become like that de=P...haha but frankly speaking she seems to slim down from the last time I saw her...serious lor!...haha power sia...* bet she muz be super happy if she read this*...haha..then later went to grapevine to grab some drinks...in the end, ok its not really much and kinda ex sia....hmm nect time must go to the one opposite..looks promising though...then we went home kinda late lor..which brings us to the point that if got a car, it will be so much of a convenience* so kel..u better pass this friday man!!!!!*...got half the mind to get my dad's car and send kel home cuz she stayed at amk and dun really have any direct bus liao...then next time go out with the guys can also stay out later=P...hehe doubt so lor cuz we most prob will be drinking...lol...