'Sky with Love'

Just finished watching 'Sky with Love', which is a very emo. show lent by pig...lol. Thot I had watched enough emo. shows to not cry liao...lol. Haha and yes pig i cried in the end=P...the last few moments were so sad, how not to sia?!!! Well the show was rather interesting...lol...the couple always seems to make out...so...oh well...haha but that's not the point. In the end, the ending was not the kind of down to earth ending that I thot it will be. Because in the end, she chose to go with her 1st love and the one who gave her so much pain at 1st. I always got the thinking that sometimes or rather in life, most usually ended up with the one that treated them the best and all...so ok I was a bit taken aback by the ending...haha...

Then, being an emo person that I am..okok I better try to get rid of this tag liao...lol...its not a good reputation to have that sia...haha. There were a lot of thoughts that got thru my mind lor...

1) Somehow or rather one's 1st love will always have an impact on your life, be it literally being with you or a small bit of that person is in you. For me there are still some bits of her in me that I cannot really shake it off...lol...its like just be a part of me for so long...be it emotions or fonts or the way I expressed myself.

2)Sometimes being the ultimate nicest and goodest person don't always get what they want...so we should all become bad guys!!!...lol...haha of course thats was just a joke lah...be bad guy should go learn from joker in the upcoming batman movie..XP..digressing liao...like the 2nd person she dated, he was ever so nice and understanding but he didnt get along with her in the end as well. I am not saying that one should become a bad person lah or a selfish one...if one feels that a particular person is worth loving, then even if there is no reciprocation..its your own choice de leh..well who says we can have everything in this world sia...But again this type of complex emotions is very crazy and hard to handle...its like u are always being pulled on both ends...maybe that's why I became so tall...haha

4) ' If you are really meant to be together, even after a break -up, you will still be together'. this is one of the phrases that was said during the movie. Well, although I sometimes think of this as a rather pyschological way of consoling yourself=p...if one thinks like this, then of course life is going to be so much happier.

"What is your view of yourself?"

The worse enemy u can ever fight is yourself...that's what actually happened to one of my close buds in NS. Recently, he was posted out to another unit and that he couldn't cope with the environment there. Then somehow he broke down and cause a huge uproar among the other unit as our side the big shots...He was even referred to the IMH for psychiatric consultations as well sia...Just now made a call to him, good to know that he is fine and all. Apparently, the problem was that he couldn't cope with the change of environment and yet he felt that he had to live up to other's expectations. Well...hopefully that he can reach his decision soon. He told me that the psychiatrist asked him a very good question, " What is your view about yourself?"..he told me that he was stunned over that question and till now he is still thinking about it. This also makes me think about it as well...it's quite interesting that in life, even at this age there are people whom do not really know about themselves and what they want. Sad to say, I also don't really know as well...lol...haha or maybe I already know but I am too afraid of the future to go by it...Dunno whether what I am doing now is also the right thing...actually a lot of it I dun even know sia...but like what allen says in d-gray man.." just keep walking"....maybe one day i will know the answer to the questions in my life...

And sorry sam for asking u out so late at night and I know u are dead tired and still bored u with all those..life sucks comments and all. Will make it up to u the next time we meet up=D...

Going on a 'flight'...

On saturday, went to the Singapore Flyer with zhenni...well it was kinda cool and all, though the ride was rather short man!! it was suppose to be 30 bucks!!! so its like 1 dollar per minute...wad the...lol...and we had super poor time management sia..almost late for the ride...lol...but there were pros and cons cuz we got on the less packed capsule...lol...

looking good with the city skyline behind=D
cool art..or rather cute=P

my dessert..super sour :S....


our dinner....

Hers...much nicer and oh...macha powder is salty...bleah...

this is not my idea...seriously..i look dumb



NDP rehearsal!!! i understand ur feelings guys!!


near the door!!!..help!!! Further showcase me being rather tall=P



so overall it was fun and amusing as well...hmm...at the end sent her home, thought wanted to go somewhere and chill cuz i didnt want to go home early=P...i am a night owl leh...lol...anw saw this choco shop...looks cool...one day will go and try...lol...anw answered a question wrongly in the end, shit...but anw what will come will come lor..isn't

CHANGE

just thought to have a new change in name...and the start of the new me ever since 2004 when I 1st had a blog...good bye to the old act cute me=P...and hello to the new eugene who is building his own 'imladris'=)

Fall for you by secondhand serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Eventually, the thing that I used to sought after so much and hope for it, has sort of appeared before me. Of cuz now it might have just only be a passing window or an illusion, but it forced me to seriously consider my options about it.

Its actually kinda funny when the thing that u desired the most in the past, suddenly appeared and now u realised that its not really that important or desirable after all.

Hope is a double-edge sword my friend...it can either kill u or make ur dreams come true...

Well..Well..Its has been quite a while since I last blog right??.....lol...Well my final evaluation is finally over!!!(actually on 28th to 30th april=P) and now can count the days to ORD loh!!...haha...Just left mask test, shooting thts all but there is still some more standbys and duties that need to be done and the AHM..wah kao...si bei sianz.....

Last monday went to NUS for the SOC interview...lol...thought I was going to be late...in the end I was a little..lol...met a gal from TPJC whom arrived like 2 hrs earlier coz she was afraid of being late as she never come to NUS before...wad de...kinda funny...then also had to take some kind of logic test...anyhow do sia..lol..then the interview I just try to be confident and link stuff back to the economy and all...dunno whether sufficient but well hope so lor!!...

After that went to meet up with Pig, cuz she was nearby to collect my birthday present, and was kinda surprised...got a bit of kenna punked the gan jue....lol...she got me 2 boxers with wad..homer and a baby respectively...haha...then followed her to her exam place which was held at a hall..kinda weird. Recently heard that SIM held their exams at Singapore Expo.!!! Wah...nowadays exam places getting more exotic sia..lol..haha

this weekend kinda sianz...=( got duty on sunday then wont get to bk out till friday...haiz...saded...lol...wanna watch speed racer and indiana jones!! Tml still got this financial seminar tht I just signed up...better dun be another promotion event...if not i sure work out de...lol...from 9 to 3.30 sia....tiring sia!!!....no life!!! then my bro kept hogging the com. , means one thing...cannot chiong anime!!! ah....lol