It is what it is.

In a blink of an eye, its another year and this is the first post of the new year 2019. Towards the end of 2018, things had been interesting. I had went for more and more interviews and felt that I am closer to leaving BNP behind. Alas, I am still here at the beginning of another year. Reservist has also passed and we have managed to clear our Etest and gotten a high grade for it. Yays! Though personally, I feel that we are not up to the standards that I think we should be. As compared to the active days, I would say my performance were quite sub-par. But, somehow the entire company passed so there you have it. 

This year is also shaping up to be a busy and life changing year with the wedding and soon to be getting my own house. Its actually quite a step up I have to say, still feel a bit daunting.Who would have thought I was actually looking forward to such a day 4 years ago, I feel a bit nervous about it now.But somehow, ring, wedding venue and bridal package have already been bought and settled already. 

At Edwin place or somewhere, heard him tell Jia Xin something about finding that significant other. To outsiders, he married his JC sweetheart, so it's like love and destiny must have played a huge part of it.  To him, he felt that because this relationship is one that he puts in effort and care maintaining and that Sharon also does the same, that's why it work out. There can be a few people out there that you are compatible with but there will eventually be one that you will want to put in effort and heart into it. And I can relate to that, there had been quite a bit of girls that I felt that I am compatible with and my train of thought were similar to but in the end, I chose Cat and this is the r/s that both of us work hard with and stick with it throughout. Adjusting and getting used to each other. Of course, there were times when the "What If?" creeps into my mind. Just the other day, while Cat and me were at Hyatt. I bumped into Lisian and her Fiance who is quite tall mind you. I didn't really say hi and just wondered whether was he the guy that she was still waiting for since 10 years ago. I remembered that we two hit off pretty well and have some kind of HTHT in the past which makes me change my perception of her. Thinking back, maybe she wasn't so daft as I had initially made her out to be. But it was nice seeing her and she also getting married.

Managed to finish 12 episodes of Sherlock, Benedict Cumberbatch is good and the story telling was great. Though somehow the ending of it does seems a bit off putting, since the hype of it was so much and in the end, the scriptwriter decides to bring about the message of emotions. Its kinda bereft of the logic thinking and plot twists of the earlier episodes and more of a rush end instead. The quote that ended the season was " It is what it is."

I shall leave this here for me to ponder in the future.