Back from F.C.

Back from F.C.

After 6 days out in the wild, sort of totally forgotten how is it like to be in civilisation liao...wake up put camo, fall in...rush rush rush...then always cannot make it in time...knock it down....crawl and crawl up the slope..in mud...wah kao..sianz lor...and how can 1 forget the weather sia.....rain and rain and rain....super cold lor...so far the only great thing I learnt was the field signals...super fun sia...lol...

food was great lor unlike the past then there were all those 'things' out there too...damn scary sia...ooh...actually after the FC, felt that it wasnt exactly that xiong as I imagine lor...well except u count the pumping...and all the other crap lor...Even after the FC. I still dont think we as a group is very good lor...though at times we are super zai but i other than that I think we are super dis-united and all....sianz sia...after a month liao...but wad to do..LLST lor...wad can we do sia...anw according to K2ic, we are supposedly to be the worst batch sia...haiz. wad else can I say...anw after a month on that island, i hav sort of gotten use to terms with life on that island and no matter how much does one excel in it, it is no use lor...everything muz be done together and for other things LLST again. Even after a month, we are still not united lor...hmm...anw such things is like that lor so juz bear with it...but anw FC is over already lor so another major event is down..so time is counting down to my POP.........tick tock..tick tock

The rain....

The rain...

It has been raining for the past few days on this island lor...very sianz...but the plus point is that we dun need to do much stuff...hehe...anw it sort of spoils my mood as well lor...coz of something that I thot I may kenna but thanks god that I didnt lor...lol...

Also, in my world it also seems to be raining as well...feels cold and wet and that everything seems so dark and gloomy lor...very sianz lor...I think the rain sort of cause everything to become dark and everything...anw maybe sometimes I should juz try to always look on the brighter side of things lor...though only a month has past but to me it has already been like 2 months or even more lor...lol...

Yesterday, met up with pig, and follow her go for her interview...lol...dunno why so nervous for what lor...lol...anw its not me who is going for it lor...haha anw also her friend juz flew off to down under to study and she also sort of feeling down and all...she ask me a question which I kept thinking in my head..She ask whether we are able to stay as ourselves right now at this point of time ?...like whether we will change in the near future and all lor...coz she is also afraid that some of her friends including me when we 'serve our duty', we will pick up bad habits and all lor...she says she had frens that changed lor during that period of time and all and although initially they say that they wont changed but eventually they still did lor...

This really got me thinking because I can see from her point of view why...and also given the position I am in, i also can relate to it...I didnt tell her whether I will not changed and all coz I feel that it is difficult to say lor...but anw I also dont want to changed in to someone that I dont like too...hmm..but after thinking about it, I cannot say that I wont changed lor but I will definitely try to hold on to what I always believe in and my principles lor and of coz my sense of humour no matter what happens lor...so Pig dont worry so much lor...anw jason will also be allright ya...=)

Yoz juz book out again!!! But will not really count as a book out lor coz still muz rush out to get some items lor...anw maybe will kenna another confinement coz of all the packed schedule and stuff like that, so a bit sianz lor...


Was juz reading the previous entry, then felt that it was rather damn sad and bleak and all but well that how i felt at that point of time lor and though I did met up with her recently..well...what can I say...erm time is never enough lor...lol...I think the longer time I am away from her and home, my mind began to wander and my emotions will run wild lor...shit man...lol...Anw, I told myself before that I must move on and that a lot of things just leave it to the wheels of destiny to turn and see what it has unfolds for me...but like what I say before it is very difficult to actually go and practice it. but in any case, I think I should sometimes be more siao sa lor...