1 -year soldier!!

Its soon approaching the end of year liao...whew...tml I will be one year soldier liao!!!haha...one more to ORD!!!Usually year end, I always have these end of year reflection thingy. Realised that last year I didnt have it...haha cuz maybe becuz of my depression( juz enter NS leh...)...haha so ya.


Hmm...was just talking with my platoon mates the other day, or rather yesterday..then we talk quite a lot...or rather I talk bah...cuz it seems that I had smthg that I wanted to share to them. In the end, talk to them about a lot of things from relationships to life in general to FOOD....hehe...like how JY likes to put it' army can make the best of friends'. Its really true lor as we just sat down and talk about everything in the sun ok moon as it was at night.


Then like wad ben said, maybe I didn't really have the time for myself cuz book outs are precious and I go all out to use every free time as if its super important. Going out with friends, cheonging animes and playing psp games. I used to take time outs like just be all alone by myself and dont care a hoot about the world...time can pass for all I care...its juz myself so that I can think and reset myself for what I am going to do on how to look at the big picture...so that I wont like make wrong decisions as well as be more sure on wad to do lor. Thts wad I did last sunday for juz 20 minutes though short but it was..erm...how to put it...relaxing. I realised that for the past few months, I had let my emotions and feelings over-ride whatsoever rational I had as well as the bigger picture. Erm...to put it simply is that I just do whatever comes to my mind, w/o thinking lor...like i am not in control of my life...haha


maybe I should really take a step back bah....=)