Eventually, the thing that I used to sought after so much and hope for it, has sort of appeared before me. Of cuz now it might have just only be a passing window or an illusion, but it forced me to seriously consider my options about it.

Its actually kinda funny when the thing that u desired the most in the past, suddenly appeared and now u realised that its not really that important or desirable after all.

Hope is a double-edge sword my friend...it can either kill u or make ur dreams come true...