Distant

A story on relationships:

A master asked his disciples:

‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’

the disciples thought for a while, and one of them said
‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’
‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you? ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’
The disciples gave him some other answers but none satisfied the master.

Finally he explained:
‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’

Then the master asked:
‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small…’

And he concluded:
‘When they love each other even more, what happens?
‘They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love.

‘Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’
 

I feel that lately I am unconsciously trying real hard to reach to others, either due to social pressure or to get someone to pay more attention to me. Now of course, the above story is about anger and all, but if I were to change perspective about it, it will also mean much "noise" disturb 2 hearts. 

Maybe after what I had been through and what I had so desperately wanted had driven me so far to the dark and skeptical side of life. And I ended up viewing things in a rather warped mentality. Don't get me wrong, its not about being naive, I am definitely more expressive as compared to the past. For  I am tired of trying to hint to people to understand me. 

What I am saying here is...to feel again and with a sense of purity. To believe its nothing wrong, to try to open up again. Of cuz, its not about just being nice and all. I kinda believe that ideology is bad for health. Rather its to just use the heart and feel. Kinda realise that using the heart and emotions are different entities. We liked to lump both of them together. Yes, they are correlated, but both are not the same. For feeling with your heart, is the ability to empathise, to love. Emotions are more impulsive things and more often than not, it leads to things that we kind of regret later on.