Hmm seems like I hardly blog these days, well maybe life has been oks and all. Of cuz, as time keeps drawing nearer to CFA date, I am getting worried. Although, Cat likes to say that I just talk only but I still kept going out. However, these days, I just want feel like living a slower pace of life. I don't know. Maybe the past 2 plus months I had been going out, staying late and club twice. I suddenly feel in need of a more slower pace of life. Actually wanted to study today, but the weather and all is making me terribly hard to. So decided to take a step back, slept till ard 11am....of cuz I kept rolling around in bed. And, Cat also gone to JB for the saturday, so a bit sianz. Eventually, decided to watch Discovery Channel.

Really like the mythbusters and Man Vs Wild series, some of my favourite discovery channel shows of all time. At the same time, just try to be more at peace with myself. I didn't really expect it to happen but somehow it just did. For I too can't really forget about that night or rather the whole thing just feel so comfortable and enjoyable. Its been quite some time since I last felt so comfortable and myself in front of someone else that I don't have to put on masks anymore. Cuz with everyone I tend to wear a mask, even if  I drink a lot and have fun or club, I also have that mask. The mask for just pure having fun, Of course, I have no idea if I am totally wasted whether I will still have mask on.

The few people in my life I really took the masks down for is Sam , Pig ,GK, Yus Mei and JianYang. Even with Adeline in the past, I never really took it down. For a brief moment I did, but I was so hurt by her that I put it back on. These days, I rather wear it around and not show my true self to most people, or rather my inner self. I mean I still can go out , have fun,chit chat but I would not let most people to get too close into my soul for I am afraid. So I am surprised at myself for taking it down in front of that person.