Ups and Downs...now its downs

There are some times where u thought it doesnt affects u anymore but actually it does...why is this always happens??? I think it is because of some little actions which makes us remiscince of the past and in the end it cause us to remember those memories and feelings all over again. Does it means that these feelings will continue to haunt us until we truely and really get over it ?? and when will that time be??

Today, my mum told me that my uncle and auntie will migrate to Australia with my cousin...at 1st I was like "Are you sure???" but it turned out to be true...The 1st thing that came to my mind was ok...good for them. However, later other thoughts came to me.." When can i see them again??"...." What will happen to my grandparents??" and other little things like whether my cousin will ever remember me cause she is only 1 year old and she is a very lovable child. The thought of my grandparents living only in the house never ever cross my mind...it also never come to me on how lonely and boring they will feel after my bro. grow up...

Before this incident, on my father's side there are also some troubles that I never thought that it ever exists and only i came to know after 8 years...and the thought of relatives trying to keep it from us...is heart- wrenching...it only furthur shows that life isnt so easy and in each of our lives everyone has their own set of troubles and the magnitude is differnt for each of us...

When we grow up, will we ever forget whatever our parents had done for us ?? Will siblings eventually turn against each other and forget about the times and bonds that that had?? Is it due to external forces or it is due to ourselves who believes in only ourselves and being unable to see through other perspectives??

i remember my mum asking me whether will I let her live with me when I get married ?? the answer was YES. However, now, is it still possible ?? I do not know...but one thing for sure whatever they want I will try to give it to them...cause I think we will never what will happen in the future, whether we will change or not...

So I feel that now we should treasure everything that we have now, cause u will never know when it will all be taken aways from u...can u try to put away all the differences and the boundaries to try to connect with people around u? What about me?? I am trying... its not easy but always look towards the light and back at the shadow...