I am no house-husband...

Didnt followed my family out to temple and buying whatever miscellaneous stuff today. Stayed at home, taking down curtains, reading the papers, thinking of ways to maximise my room space, thinking how to sort out things better, thinking how to arrange stuffs in ways that wouldn't harm the fengshui in the room.

While taking the curtains down, I was thinking just randomly about things that had been bouncing around in my head recently. I thought of the past, the future, the fengshui session, articles that I read in the papers regarding LKY. Stuff that was brought out yesterday between ming lee, jacob, nurul and me. Needless of cuz, I also thought about the people who are close to me. Seems like an awful amount of thoughts hur...haha..but I assure you, with our brainpower, we can definitely think a lot of things within 15 mins or so...its more of a touch and go thing anws.

I won't really elaborate about every touch and go issues that I mentioned just now, cuz I think those are meant to be as a post of their own...so lets not shortchange them bah...haha....Rather, I at times likes to do really mundane stuffs, like taking down curtains, cooking, packing, taking walks around the neighborhood and just sitting around and talking to close friends or sam. Its sort of keep me on the ground, to let me realise that there is still so much to life, that dreams are not as far as it seems.

Lets take an example, Sam always gives me a feeling that I know that there is always a pillar there for me, even if the sky falls( i am no chicken little please..haha). She is my window to a world that somewhat always seems so topsy-turvy and that people are sometimes not what they seems to be. Also, I think I am so comfortable around her that whatever I am thinking, no matter how absurd or weird to social norms, I don't mind exploring it with her, and whatsoever I am feeling, I just say it all out...I think maybe its the trust I have in her or something..ha...I just literally tells her everything...even down to things that just flashed through my mind=)

Currently, I feel that I have something to fight for...there is this dream that I set myself on the year of 2005..haha...I also feel that I got to learn and try to be more confident this year which is something I feel that its important. Compared to the past, I definitely much more confident le...able to talk around n socialise to some extent, but there is this thing call calmness that I am not still not good yet. I still stumble and stutters in some situations. At the same time, in emotionally charged events, I am still rather "lead by the nose"...Of course, I dont want to end up like a total robot but more of able to be somewhat stable that kind of things lo...we shall see for that aspect..haha

Oh...and recently I also have a really chilled and laid back attitude to relationships and stuff. Its like a poker game, where right now capital is low, so I just keep buying in to the game, but if the starting cards are no good, then I fold lo...if not I will follow to see the next cards or if the other player( the girl) will make any move a not. I don't want to force certain things anymore, even if I have some feelings, but the girl obviously no interest or so, then so be it lo(fold). Anws, love and such things needs 2 to clap and the right timing for feelings to grow, right? ( btw this is a friend's quote, disclaimer here ah)