Giving thanks

First post of the new year... suppose to do a reflection on 31st... but a bit hard to find time to. Spent the new year in Bangkok, Thailand. The land of thousand smiles. Rather than going through everything that had happens in the past year, think rather I should give thanks for everything that had happens.

Last year, was a year for many firsts. First relationship. First time moving to a condo ( in 2014 ). First time taking an external exam. Naturally, the main bulk of it will be about the relationship issue. However, won't bore you guys all over again and besides I don't think should dwell in the past and that we should look forward instead.

First and foremost, I would want to thank my dearest close friends. Seriously, without them, I don't think I will be who I am today. Samantha, pig, Zhenni and the Bball guys. Whenever life seems to throw me a spanner in my life's works, they will be there to help me get out of the ditch. And of course, my dear Sam who tries to be always there whenever I needed her and pig for always being able to look from the positive light in life.

Next up, are my family members. Even though I don't tell them much but I guess family are like anchors in one's life. Unassuming and always there where you need them. Like when I need help, my sister helps and my brother who always kid around with me, just him kidding around makes my life a whole brighter.

Third, is Adeline. She have been a source of happiness as well as unhappiness in my life. She has shown me a while lot of myself, not indirectly but still she plays a major role in it. She taught me... Or rather her actions forces me to learn a lot of things in life. I do not know how long and whether in the long run, I will still be with her but as of now,I am thankful that I am in a relationship with her. Thankful that I have someone that I can care for. Thankful that I still have hope that she will be able to overcome her insecurities. Thankful that I am always and still learning a lot of myself due to her. Thankful that she still believes in us and that she didn't let me go then. Thankful that she had shown me that I have lost myself in the process of being in a relationship. Lastly, thankful that we still hold hands and shows me a side that many others wouldn't get to see.

Fourth, I am thankful for the various inspirational books and self help books out there in this world. For without them, I would be lost and be unable to think positive in life. Through them, I have learnt the power of being positive and that happiness is never a journey nor is it a destination but it is a choice.

Finally, I am thankful for myself. For being alive, for being able to be open to new ideas, for learning how to let go of certain things, for trying not to take life too seriously. Thankful that I didn't wallow in self despair. I know I am not the final product that i had envision myself to be, neither am I a mature adult yet that some are expecting me to be. It will happen when it happen. For now, at this moment, I am who I am and I shall make decisions as best to my abilities. And for that, I am thankful that I am given the moment to be able to do that. =)