On my own...

Today went to watch Ip Man 2 on my own at vivo, then after that went to kallang leisure park to check out the new mrt station lor...And boy, it is definitely one of the smallest mrt stations ever created I think O.0...then went to chill out at the coffee bean there and somemore it was raining...sia lah...emo dog sia...haha..anws below will be an excerpt that I wrote when I was there...its about an incident that happened on the way to kallang...

Just now, met a lady by the name,Patricia, who wondered how to get to Tanjong Pager from Habourfront. Since I was heading east-bound, I showed her the way and chatted with her a bit. Got to know that she is a christian and from a church somewhere in Joo Chiat. Reminds me a lot of eunice, as both of them want to intro me to their church. I think its high chance both of them are from the same church, since eunice's church also in joo chiat. In any case, patricia was going on about Jesus, that he is the true living god, and how he took upon all our sins on to himself..etc..etc. She also mentioned that after death, we have only 2 places to go to, either heaven or hell. And she said that as long as we embrace/accept God, then we will be accepted into Heaven, because our name are written on some kind of list or something( reminds me of some cartoons I used to watch when I was young). 


Does it mean that we embrace a religion so to ensure that in after life(something that is not certain), we will be able to go to heaven(ie. paradise) and not hell? To me, it sounds like the way we are going to live our life is so that we will be able to go to heaven. It sounds a bit weird to me, because firstly, its like because we care about ourselves as we want to be in heaven and thats the reason why we chose this religion. Secondly its like we will be chasing something that is not certain, and may I add, it's like not being true to oneself, sounds very much like the rat race problem that everyone is facing. 


I am not saying that all these are wrong or anything, if we think on a macro scale, it's definitely good for society as people will be compassionate and they will be more at peace with themselves. However, to me I feel that its a bit like conformity, so that we are able to attain our passports to heaven. Of course, I am sure that god has definitely helped many in their life problems and stuff and I respect people decision to be devoted to the religion...but if the main reason is just to get that passport, I think it's a bit wrong in that aspect. Confucius once said something on this to his student, " You do not even understand life, how can you understand death?". Hence, if one based his life's purpose due to something that is only obtainable in the after-life, I don't think thats a good way of living. 

I hoped that I don't sound very anti-christ or something...lolz...I know that there had been many interpretations of the bible out there in the way, and somehow one church may defer from another. As quoted in 07 Ghost, " There are many truths to something". So I think sometimes...no...usually its due to one's perceptions of things in life, so the above is just my perceptions of this topic lor...haha must put a disclaimer sia, because religion is again a very sensitive topic...hope never offend anyone or anything=)

Looking Around Us...

Today on my way back home from SMU( F1 training), I stumbled onto this very interesting pedestrian crossing. Its at a cross junction, and some people and me were waiting to cross the street...then I noticed the sign" Pedestrian crossing not operational from 9 am to 11 am and 5pm to 9pm ". Then I glanced on the road, then there were some words written on it" Not in operation from  9 am to 11 am and 5pm to 9pm"...I was like " zhun bo"...then I glanced at my watch( 5.25 pm)...by then 5 people including me have gathered there and waiting for the green man to become green. So after noticing the other traffic lights and noticing the trend of the traffic lights, I realised that this is indeed true, and decided to cross the road by another route. As I walked away, I heard one of the man telling his wife and kid in chinese " why it doesn't work?"..and I noticed the 2 ang moh tourists looking bewildered. I deliberated whether to enlighten them( the SG mindset of 'not my problem' was surfacing)...eventually I did. I told the man that it's after 5 pm le, so they couldn't cross. Then I was wondering whether the ang mohs will get the msg, so after 3 seconds of hesitation, I walked up to them and told them that the sign said that it is currently not operational...and they were like " Oh..no wonder"...lolz. As I crossed to the other side of the road, I noticed another group of people also waiting at the same point. I was thinking whether to shout out to them...but decided not to le...

Definitely this got me thinking, how come when there are obvious signs, why people can still overlook it and eventually tried to do the foolhardy thing like trying to cross the road though there is heavy traffic. It very much reflects how we approach things in life as well, there are obvious signs and yet due to the ' eh...isnt this to be a normal thing' mindset, we ignore the signs and decided to just do what is supposedly 'normal'.

Another point is that as humans, we have a tendency to only see ourselves only. Take from this example for instance, the signs were put up, the words were written on the road...how come no one noticed it? Does it mean that we just cross the road without looking at the road? The 2nd group I noticed were talking among themselves without noticing that they couldn't cross the road. Which brings me to a point that I read recently in a book about Confucius. There is something about "When eating , do not talk, just focus on eating". It sounds like something on table manners right?..lolz..But in actual fact, I interpret this as if one is doing something, one should focus on that thing and not try to multi task and be distracted by other stuff. I think this phrase is applicable to many situations, had the pedestrians sort of 'concentrate' on crossing, then they would have notice this weird traffic rule.

When you are at life's cross-roads, does one knows what and which path is best suited for him? and will he choose the best one?

F1 Training

Today, nearly late for the F1 Singapore Grand Prix 2010 training..cuz I was mistaken about the time...so in the end had to rush like siao...got kinda lost in the exit from Bras Basah MRT station and SMU basement...but eventually reached le. Oh and in case, any of you are wondering, I just joined the F1 Race Officials crew...apparently I was kinda lucky..cuz the trainers were saying that out of 3000 applicants, only 300 were chosen. Somemore, I was last minute got called up de...so seriously lucky...It sort of got my andrenaline pumping during the training, cuz of the magnitude of stuff that we had to perform. Like waving the flag at the correct time and for track marshals to clear debris from the track( which is actually kinda life- threatening)...and I am not really a fan of F1...I just want to be near to the action and see how things were operated...however most ppl there seems to be F1 fans..like seriously...lol

And we had to wear overalls(reminds me of my CBRE days)...then there was the numerous flags colours that we had to take note of , as well as the hand signals we had to learn...and of course the safety protocols lor...hopefully it will be a great experience...got quite a lot of learning on how to make split second decisions...and must learn how to siam if I see a flying F1 car O.O...lolz...and I even met someone I worked with at APEC last year...lolz...rather small world sia...haha

It will be a tiring 4 days sia..cuz had to report at 12 noon and can only zao at 11 pm plus plus...but the plus point is that we can watch the race for free....haha...and hope nothing crazily happens sia..rofl...

07 Ghost

I was introduced to 07-Ghost by my brother and zhenni. Its an anime rather similar to D-gray man, as it uses Christianity and a bit of Buddhism in its storyline. There is quite some action but not as much as bleach though. In  the anime, there is something that humans are given 3 dreams and that they told God what is it about. After accomplishing those 3 dreams, then they will be able to return to God and be reincarnated. Of course, when the humans are alive, they do not know what are their dreams are and that they will be searching for it. In that sense, thats the beauty of life.

Actually there was some sad parts in the anime, and it has a link to the above notions...I was rather shaken by it, but I forgotten on what to type about le...lolz=P

Wave After Wave...

Waves...We all love waves don' we? , ever since young, I am always fascinated with the ocean...I like to run on the beach with the waves crashing in...like to lie down near the ocean and let the water pull me back and push me up again...hear the waves crashing against the sands...This is rather akin to our emotional selves as well...

For example, if you all look back at the previous entries, I was rather stressed up and had a mini breakdown last week in between my papers. The emotions( doubt, fear, uncertainty) were like waves...when the human mind keeps thinking about it, scenarios kept replaying again and again...and just like the waves, it will keep pulling us back and pushing us forward...and once the scenario aka the wave is strong enough, we will be pulled so far that , we ended up floating away from the shore. And we will be lost....far far away from our shores...

Actually I think this is also rather similar to a lot of people in the rat race or just started to work. Initially, at first, I am sure many people will wish to get promoted or hopefully attained a high salary or to have a dream, goals to achieve...As time passes, we slowly and slowly start to settle in the routine of work, the routine of waking up early, work, sleep, wake up, work and sleep...slowly but surely we ended up like waves, which have the same routine of pulling us and pushing us...Eventually, we all end up furthur and furthur away from our shores(dreams). And this is something that can so easily happen to us, because we humans like all other creatures feel the safest in the environment that we are comfortable with( or should I say, what society is comfortable with)...I can feel it as recent as just now...I work on monday (8 to 5) then tuesday( 8 to 5)....and always at the end of the day, I am always tired and want to sleep...I can feel it within myself, my lazy side was like: so routine, so easy, everyday work lah...get money...work sleep work sleep and money comes in....but my other side popped out, and was like : what are you doing? aren't you like a hamster, keep running on the wheel....in other words, I feel that there is no aim or rather reason to work...except to earn money, which is definitely true but the million dollar question is for wad?

I think I have just re-discover my aim=)

Finally its over...

Today was the last paper, and I can tell ya...how relief I was when the invigilator said, " rows 36 onwards can leave now"...Actually it had been a roller coaster ride for these past 6 days for me...I had a mini nervous breakdown on tuesday night...after my PBF paper...coz I think its due to the uncertainty of exams..and the fact that they are squeezed everything into 3 days...somehow, luckily today econs paper was rather do-able...though just realised that I had a couple slightly wrong answers...but somehow  I had a good feeling over the paper...a bit like what I had for stats 1 on thurs... so hopefully will pass lor...but in anycase, I can't do anything about it liao lor...

Really want to thank sam, especially her for calling me all the way from UK!!..and I only just send her an email...but its really surprising and was kinda touched..and sort of spur me on to chiong one more chapter for PBF...although i thnk pbf didnt end up as what I expected, cuz I made a stupid calculation mistake( hope they got take into the method i use)...so sam, jia you as well for ur last few papers!!!=)

Seriously, this week hadn't been easy...but its over le..haha...time to do things that I want to do le...=)

I totally blew it for my maths 1...and thats suppose to be the paper that will give me my 1st class. The trump card in my battle plans for this year war. I made every mistake a commander can ever make. Over-confidence, doubts came in, unfamiliarity with scenarios...its was suppose to be rather easy...lost too much casualties in the 1st battle...totally demoralised and damn piss with myself after knowing the reasons and the obvious mistakes...

2nd battle was a much better battle...I feel that I did things right, though answers were a bit weird...but I am sure I had did enough...but in any case...I still feel very sianz over the 1st paper...was really pissed during the break, didnt want to talk to anyone and very mess up in the head...

Anws, the war is not over yet...