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I think I was pretty shaken by this whole bang car thingy, though its should be kinda trivia, since well I guess its normal for people to bang each other here in singapore. But, its just kinda feels sucky to know that a mistake can lead to so much shit. Also, maybe coupled with the after exams hangover, I seriously if dont have the car accident thing to worry me, I would have actually pick up my monetary econs notes and start reading them again....Come to think of it, next thursday I also have the bloomberg assessment test, so need to read up on my CF notes...whee~~~ 

Yesterday, after korean, naturally came home, kenna kb by mum over the car accident thingy. So maybe I was also kinda turned off, showered and started playing Football Manager 2012, which I just bought till 3 am today morning. Woke up at 6.45 officially and started playing from 8am till 7pm non stop, never left the chair except for eating maggie mee and drink water. Siao sia, I totally just absorbed into doing one thing, just making my team win and ensure that the next much they will win...Its actually quite scary, haha so I finally pull the plug off at 7.15pm. Decided to take some time off and blog, and at the same time think through about the things I wanted to do during the holidays which I thought of while studying. Initially, thought of like learning a first aid course, ice skating, etc etc....but now its like..whatever...haha...normal sia

However, monday got to go back work liao...so a bit sianz, but then again I need the cash so I bo bian. Go korea end of july, but havent book tickets and whatever yet...power sia..need to discuss with jianyang first. Suddenly feel like grabbing a book, and head to a nice little cafe with a comfy couch and read books and spent the afternoon away like that...haha...but dun really know where in sg gt such cafes with not so much crowds de. Of cuz cannot be so unaccessible lah, seems like i am off driving at least for this year liao. 

Oks i was like afk for like 3 hrs since i wanted to blog smthg. my dad keep asking me about the mortgage loan interest package and what nots...cuz he assume i am an economics and finance student so i should know such stuff, in actual sense, i have no clue...i not from banking side de...lol...in the end had a crash course of SIBOR rates in 30 mins...courtesy of google..haha..managed to explain the low down to him at least. Lol...

So, i am kinda lost with this entry liao....haha

Hopefully...

Well then, got back from the reporting at IDAC since have to report any accidents within 24hrs when it happened. Realised, that my dad insurance will be able to cover the cost and that unless the settlement is below 600 which is highly unlikely, then I will have to cover the costs lo. Nonetheless, my dad premium will have to increase but don't know how much increase in premium will be though he did say it was pretty small. Oh wells, hopefully everything will be settle and oks now liao lor.

start/end, banged and good game=(

The closing of another chapter and the start of another chapter that I am not so looking forward to. But who knows, it might promise some new adventures and people that I can meet along the way. Yesterday, was the last paper. Well, in a way its the last paper of my entire degree course to be exact. Was at ulu Republic Poly, so jianyang fetch me to the place, got lost in RP, damn noob...but eventually found our way to the exam hall. Seriously, very little people take Monec sia, only 3 rows, no wonder not at Expo. I think I perform my best for the paper liao, whether its enough or not, I feel that I did my best so at least, I didnt end my mugging life on a bad note. JY, felt it wasn't good...but hopefully it will be oks for him lo.

Afterwards went to Zion road for lunch, not bad char kway tiow, and chat abit with wei jun. He got a job at Maybank and will be working at some bank branch. 2.7 for someone who has no intern experience. So, not bad imho. Was telling him dunno when will meet up again, cuz I dun always hang out with wei jun except for classes. Anws, he is also my sergeant in army, so make it reservist as well. haha

Which got me thinking of the people I made or re-made in some way. I didn't exactly made much new friends, but had a cool group of study buddies this year. Ben,Jianyang,Tracy and me. haha...the damn chill group...but its fun haha. Of course, some others along the way like jasmine,tilynn, kwang han and zhi zhuang.

After that, went to Tracy house with jianyang to taunt her about us finishing exams le. Haha...yeah it was random but random things are fun. However, conversely it may be bad.

Later on at night, knew adeline was working OT, decided to drive out to wait for her after work. Cuz I was kinda distracted and tired, didn't notice the black car in front of me. And I knock his rear. Though I was braking, but still got substantial sound. From the initial looks of it, it doesn't look bad, but apparently this morning when the person called back, it seems to be a 1387 charge. Sucks man, first time bang...and eventually kenna this kind of thing. Parents confirm kaobei me max. My car damage doesnt seem to be much, and the other guy side seems oks. But he this morning called and say that got dents and scratches, fuck sia...if use insurance, hopefully the deductible is 250 or so. Haiz, its sianz lah...but what to do...just found out that his wife is pregnant as well, hopefully she wasnt in the car yesterday, though i noticed some kids.

COME ON!!!

Oks, I have to admit, maybe something that I should have admit myself a long time ago. I am distracted. Not in a very  big way, but a significant way such that it decreases my attention at studying. I left with a 7 day period before my paper officially start next week. I still have a lot of fine-tuning to do and all, before I reach the level that I would expect for both my POA and MSM. QF, it seems will suffer the same fate as EOE last year, I will try to spend a day on it. 7 days, 168 hrs take away all zzz and travelling time, about 120 hrs. I lament the time lost, but all I can do now is just to make full use of the 120 hrs or so left.

There is still some spills and glory to win in this war. All it needs is the people and army to be one. The right mindset to survive this. The moment you lose this strength, you lose the war. Enough said.

As chill as an Ice cube

Is it me, or is it seriously, when one is 3rd year already? the drive to excel just simply disappear? I find myself really unmotivated and just plain chill about this whole exam thingy, its like there ain't any stress at all, I am just too chill sia

Happy 6 years of Friendship...and counting...=)

This year, she didn't wish me birthday on the 28th. I knew that given her circumstances, she most probably won't be able to. I know that no matter where she is, she will  somehow contact me, to let me knw that she is still alive and well somewhere. I already knew she is hardly at home anymore, but as long as she is safe and well, I dont ask for anything more. Somehow, I knew that this year will be different, no sms or anything, I kinda expected it. And, no I am not unhappy or angry about it, I think it has reach to a level, where if u can reply me, even a sentence, I see that u are still using whatsapp, and I will be contented knowing that u are safe and alive.

She did had a blog entry for me to read, and luckily I read today and not yesterday, not very nice to be a bit emotional on your birthday right?..haha. She posted the entry just after midnight, same time when I was trying to get adeline to sing me a birthday song over the phone. Everytime, I thought and think through about our lives, all the way back to 2006 late april where we officially started as friends,yes it has been a long 6 years, how we evolve through time. How we gradually accepted the fact that it is not possible for us to meet whenever we need each other, how we are really grateful for how little time we have each other, be it 20 mins or an hour, I am truly am grateful for it.

Unlike ly, I cannot eliminate friends from my circle. I did thought of it before, but I can't. I used to think that I am giving too much in this friendship, and all I get back are just..well..not as much as I thought it should be. Its really damn painful at first, but as time goes on, as I grew older. I learnt that when you really truly cared about someone, its not something that is measurable anymore. I don't expect anything anymore, as long as you are happy and safe, I will be contented. I still care as much as the day when I rushed down to NYJC on 2006, to see her crying in front of me, and all I wanted to was to tell her that everything will be alright, how depressing for me to see you like this.

She is not a typical person like most of the people I know and have talked to in depth. Her life is not a very smooth sailing one, but she has always pull through no matter what the odds are, and one of the reasons, why I had always respected her for that. To say the truth, I also dunno what I can bring to her life. All I know is just to be there for her whenever she needs me, be it spiritually or in person.

I am not entirely surprised to know that again she had disappeared away from my life, its just her, I can't change her. All along she is that kind of person, every now and then, periodically,she will pop in and after awhile she will be gone again.

That is because from then on I know when I sit alone.
There will be someone wishing the best for me.
There will be someone that will listen and come downstairs.
That I will never be truely alone anymore. 


This  is an excerpt from the entry. And yes, as we kept walking and living on this earth, as we move on to other stages of life, moving on to different worlds with different lifestyles and people that we will meet , we both know the fact that no matter how life hit us hard, so hard that it seems that there is no one in this world that believe in us, there will be someone that is always there, just a phone call away as always=)


And, yes, we had made it...we both had work hard on it, lets keep on moving and recovering from whatever setbacks we had both suffered individually over the years. I will always be here whenever you need me, as usual, Samantha. =)


So, do take care of yourself, and I also hope that you will be happy and well. Do contact me whenever you can, yeah?=)

April 28th

Had someone sang a korean birthday song to me...oks...its both of us sang in the early morning...lucky I reach home in time to answer the call...if not, yi ge sianz...haha..its not really that ideal...but still we made it thru the whole song..so I am happy..haha

Also, had my last lesson of school life today, kinda mixed feelings, but had a great time talking cock with the guys...haha...talking about random stuffs and all. When I saw the messages from facebook, I know this might sound cliche and all..but I felt really blessed to see friends just wish me a simple Happy Birthday, even acquaintances. So, I replied to each and every one of them who wished me, though its a bit long and tedious, but feels that I should do it still. Lunch went to meet longyu, supposed want to eat a quickie, but ended up talking the entire afternoon away, but it has been some time since we last chat, so its good to hear from her about her updates from her life.

Earlier had celebrated birthday dinner with pig as well on tuesday, had a nice dinner at santouka ramen, nice to hear that pig is settling well into her job though I did make a comment about her dressing, oops..lolz.

Was reading a post last year on my birthday and I wrote about 2012 being a year of new beginnings, I hope that its true. This year seems a year that I had a lot of firsts. Somehow, this year I feel that I am pretty slack as compared to the previous years, maybe its the graduate year effect. So, later after having my birthday cake, back to do some mugging. Like really seriously. lolz...well this a Happy Post right? Good start...hopefully, there will be more of such posts in the future=)