Back in seletar, life goes on....

So far for the entire week, I haven't really been doing anything much constructive lor. Just snoozing around here and there and my turning ops parade is coming soon liao on this thursday. Tml I still got my basic theory and sprinter test, so hopefully can clear both tml lor....muz pray hard sia. LOL... so muz do well tml sia, and not be afraid of the tests!!.


It has already been a week since Samantha left liao, when I book out recently. she sent me an email on how was life there and that paul had already return to singapore le. And she was a bit homesick but chatting with her on msn, I think she is should be no problemo=).


Fan er, it was pig who got a problem...aiyoh..that time really make me worry for her lor. Said that her good friend is going to overseas for operation and is really worried for him. Say that she was so tired from all the crying, met her in the morning for breakfast. Was unlike her usual self lor, a bit tad too quiet bah...so try to be a bit lame and crappy as usual...haha followed her to have our hair cut, then in the end we both look like kukus....lol...but she even worse, haha from long hair to short hair then for me I kinda felt like a...the oldies hairstyle where the front is all fold back...sia lah...weird sia.


After that, went to meet up with ben loh. was super happy to go out with him lor and found out that my life was truly kinda boring...OMG...lol.....anw it was really fun going out with him, had a great lunch and chat a lot with him=D*bro , u are the best man!* Before we went home, he told some things that I had already more or less expected it, in the past, and eventually he told me. Was happy he told me, anw it took him abt a year lor...lol...we were comparing ourselves and somehow it was during that period of time that I really able to feel that we were still kind of really got some kind of bond with each other. Then we both commented on the changes that both of us had over the past 2 years, though it seems that I changed the most lor....haha according to him. Made me think of a couple of things as usual...haha.

A new chapter begins...for everyone

On friday, I finally sent her off liao...it seems that time passes really fast all this while and all. Luckily, i didnt went too late coz I was always thinking whether should I be there leh...in the end, haha I still went because I think as a friend its much better to turn up. Anw, it was rather fun and get to know new people like her gor and yi an to a certain extent. We took some pics and as usual jojo came over and attempted to whack my head with her book and ask me to same question. " Why u so tall?" haha and still ask me why am I 190. I was like no..I am only 183 leh. lol...she never fails to envy tall people, tall doesnt necessary meant zai bball players leh* look at ren=p*. As she went into the departure hall, she cried lah. That....I kinda expected it liao...but I think this time she going overseas will be a great chance for her to see the world and experience a new culture.

I always remember last time, I couldn't find the viewing mall at the airport. And when I was a bit younger, I used to think if I ever find it with some girl or wad, then we might got a chance together. hAHA....those were the naive moments lah, when I was young...in the end, I found it myself. It wasn't as grand as I thought but I was able to see her flight from there. A blue plane, hah...one of her favourite colour.

Yesterday, I met up with ting han and had a long long chat from 10 to 2 in the early morning....wah..feels good sia to talk with ur good friend for that long. That night was all about myself, so in the near future, it should be you ah!!! haha...and dont say that I am 'old' or anything haha....and yes I am lucky to have a close friend like her but I am sure maybe u might find someone like that or even better....some one like me??=P...hahaha....jkjkjk...relaz..so next time muz meet up again sia.

here are some pics.....me and my best friend of all time, samantha * friends forever*=)

Racing against time...

For the past 2 days, I had been spending whatever time that we can find together. On Wednesday, she msg me saying that she had a quarrel with her sis. I rushed all the way back home from SDC juz to meet up with her. In the end, I ended up trying to tell her the entire Harry Potter story....and I knw I failed terribly...but hey the bk is damn long sia!!!!...We also ate ice-cream that we got from my fav. ice-cream man then after that we juz walked our usual places and haha made fun or rather some racist jokes on dogs.....haha...or rather its juz me...=P

Today, went back home as early as possible then learnt the terrible news about muz book in early.....wanted to go out with her but seems impossible lor. and also she was tired as well, didnt sleep well yesterday night it seems. So we juz talk around for 30 minutes then muz go and bk in liao...it was rather short, but well I always say that time spent with her is always worthwhile=D...We also took a few pics and at the same time, I gave her those presents liao...

Tml will be the day she will leave liao, but anw I now have finally accepted the fact that she is going overseas and that nothing will changed it....the things that I can do is to lessen her worries here as well as to support her in everything that she does...hopefully we will still be able to stay in contact=)...and will be waiting for her to come back in dec. then see wad else we can catch up on

Today went out with Sam. haha really very very long never go out with her liao...Sure its fun lor, she kept acting like some small kid like that. Haha...very funny lor....then still muz get me to teach her pool and how to cook scramble egg sia...Somehow, feel that I am really really going to miss her sia when she goes over to UK. HAha...today was quite fun, play arcade with her, time crisis 3 and we almost complete lor. Juz follow her ard to look for couples' rings for both her and paul....and the reason was super weird.

Today she said something about some orientation over the other side, I dont really agree with it but I think such orientation muz go de lor....cuz if not get left out or wadsoever is not good bah. However, to me...its still a bit too open...totally out of my values, definitely felt that its not right but like wad I said, sometimes bo bian......see personal discipline lor.

hopefully can spend the next few days with her lor...see whether we both got time bah...

Back to last year...

Recently, I have been rather emo. and I still have the cheek to call other's people blog emo..lol...the pot calling the kettle black...hahahaha.*=P kel's blog lor*....haha now its mine. Anyways, today finally cleared all my course requirements liao, so now I can wait for my military class 3 license...hehe...next stop is commercial class 3.


Almost everyday, I have been waking up and going to camp and as usual will passed by those few places. And I will always stop to think "She won't be here anymore, no use going past these places and wondering whether she is there"...For the next few days ever since last Monday, I always woke up and tell myself how many days is left only and that she is leaving already. When I cannot get the present that I wanted for her, I was so stressed and depressed that in a way ,I juz stoned at my hse the playground there. It seems that I was so into the whole "She is leaving and will never be back, How is she going to cope there?"....all these mentality that crippled me lor. It has been a very long time ever since I had been thinking about her almost every single day liao...a kinda super long loh.


Sometimes I asked myself, how come am I feeling all these emotions again..* such stuff like worry, missing someone, wanting to give her a hug and tell her not to worry, want to see her*...u know all these emotions that usually associate with liking someone or rather loving someone. Then I realized that its nothing wrong in feeling all these emotions and no, it doesnt really mean that I still treat her as someone I love. Its because she is that special friend in my life and that after last year, I treasured her a lot and cared a lot for her...as well as that because someone that always some how able to make me feel better regardless of any problems is going away.


In the end, I bought quite a number of things for her lor.... as I dun really know wad to get for her. Eventually, followed zhenni's advice(s) lor....just whacked everything lor. I think I most probably going to send her off, I don't really know what to expect, cause last time at such a situation...I see people crying especially my uncle(s) and grandparents. It was so heart-wrenching sia....and if it so suppose to be the same like that, I dont know how to face it sia....I might just totally break down. Seriously, I dont want that to happen...but see how bah...At least now I dont feel so emo liao...haha


Somehow , I always find myself going thru various emotions then in the end, its juz nothing lor...machiam go thru a roller coaster ride then it will just go back to square one. I think this shows that I truly think too much as well as worry so much. Hah...reminds me that I everytime say zhenni lor...haha...

Mixed feelings...

Today I finally passed my driving test liao....woohoo...a huge burden off my shoulders liao...lol....alright man. Supposed to be very happy de, but...upon hearing tht sam is leaving in 10 days time...haiz..it juz totally take away the entire mood lor...actually I knew that she will be leaving very soon but...it juz had to be another 10 more days...had I known the time, I would have spent more time with her....but..ya...juz feel totally sianz cuz my special fren is leaving and most prob. will be only anthr 3 months or 3 years before we can see each other again, by then both of us might changed and stuff......i mean...I am really going to missed her a lot , but I have been preparing life w/o her for awhile liao...so I dunno, should be able to cope lor...however like I said she will be like half way across the world...dun care wad abt email and stuff. When someone is not physically ard, it juz feels different.

Juz nw was chatting with her and all, I mean its always gr8 talking to her...somehow she is always able to bring out a side of me that I rarely bring out ard others as well as....well I mean really missed her lor...like hanging out and all. Was talking with her and like as always she says its has always been that its great comfort to her to knw how I was doing and wads going on in my life...and vice-versa. Also it has always been my...erm....so called responisibility to take care of her and wadever problems she might faced, as well as knowing that she is safe and happy. Now she is going to handle herself and be more independent than the past as well as getting used to the new enviroment...so now my so called help to her is only restricted to web cams, mails and the net....but I think thats life right ? I mean ppl come and go and those that are dearest to u....will leave u one day...of cuz I knw that we both will never forget each other after the times that we went thru' .

Like her , I am afraid that after these 3 years, she will come back a totally different person. Of cuz , who isnt afraid sia....but I think to me, no matter who she becomes in the future, she will always be my special fren, 1 of the most important persons in my life. Also, I have complete faith in her that wadever person she changes to, will be a much better one=)

Val's Birthday

Yesterday had been a very bz day for me lor...lol....morning had driving then after that straight away got to rush to meet ah li to pass him the SGX info. brochure as well as to juz share a bit with him about the investment portfolio and stuffs lor. As well as to get an update on how the platoon is doing....sia lah its nt very nice sia...wah.....dunno wad will happened to us when we go back after jeep course sia...Ard 3 rushed down to sim lim square to meet wth ah boon and his cousin to get his PSP....after awhile he finally gotten his PSP...lol...he a bit heart-pain lor but got his PSP liao....so after that a bit happier hahahahaha....then they both follow us to celebrate val's bdae( btw its nt tis week lor....kenna tricked by james sia)....w8ted for fatein for a very long time LOL....so we went to hard rock cafe to celebrate val's bdae lor...it was ex sia...i knw cuz i pay...lol....$168 sia...haha haven go claimed back yet...hahahaha...oh and we even bought her a west life cake....ahaha...her fav. boy band....she see also dun dare to eat...haha....we had a gr8 time lor...and stupid james still sabo with a large portion of the cake.....haha...cuz i initially sabo him 1st...not bad sia but a tiring day...reached home straight away KO....haha

Recently I had been rather stressed over my jeep driving lessons, especially the practicals lor....rather stressful sia...nowadays, got a bit of improvement liao. SO ya, I am quite glad in that sense but there is still an awful lot to learn, and monday is my driving test liao....so really really hope that I could passed it. Awful a lot of thanks to zhenni trying to cheer me on ,and to all the others who bother to listen to my nonsense. Hopefully, wont make the same mistakes liao

Juz now had night driving, it was rather interesting to drive at night and lucky it wasnt so dark yet...wah..cannot imagine if I ahd become the later driver. A bit paiseh for changing places with him cuz smthg happen...

Sam suddenly msg me at ard 6....knew that smthg had happen thou her replies are always trying to sound as if everything is alright, but juz knew that smthg was wrong anw...rushed back home lor...w8ted for her at her void deck *cuz she is supposed to be sending her kid back*.....but in the end, nvm liao lor....was very worried lor about her. in any case, the problem was abt him...so also kinda understand tht she cant meet me downstairs as he is also at her hse. Then also caught my sis in the act...with her BF...hahaha...no lah juz behaving intimately lor....nthg to it..I never see anything....nope nope...lol...

Anw so thats practically wad happen juz nw lor, oh ya did I mention that I passed parking as well...hehe....so far all my other tests have got 1st attempt passes liao....really really hope tht DT will also got 1st time pass bt seems quite unlikely leh...