Well well...finally ORD loh...went with the guys to have some fun..actually, its just some movie, which was rather lame=P...then after that went to meet up with zhenni for another movie, cape no. 7 . Its quite a nice show leh...the sound track was great..its kinda of an indie flick with a little of a japanese and taiwanese flavour to it lor...though zhenni just felt that it was juz a normal show lor...2 years have finally passed man...

Today met up with both pig and auntie, it was kinda rushed and all but it was really great to talk to them...dunno how to put it but its....ehto...shiok lah...lol...Well had a good talk with sam today, god knows I seriously need one with her...it was...lol..think i am just missing her lor...it was really really^10 nice to talk toher..when I am back, must try to hang out 2gther sia!!!...lol...think will take this trip to think a lot of things...like I say...I need to sort out myself...see if i can find my goal and ideals in life...oh and 1 more thing sam says I slim down le....haha...I slack so long yet lose weight!!! woohoo...I zai sia...lol...somehow...Sam's return bring me some calming influence on me....lol....OHMMMM...haha...

Time never stops

Today is already wednesday le...tml I will collect pay, 2 days I will be ORD-ing le, 3 days I will be in Australia...whew! 2 years has passed already sia and ting han POP just yesterday from BMTC....truly time flies...

151206-enlistment, 121208-ORD

Well well....in a week's time from today, I will be retrenched, freed, unemployed, back to home life, finding for jobs, less going out, might be more emo.(cuz no more platoon mates to talk and joke with every night and day=P), will feel parental stress more( i think), no more my own closet, no more free food =P, no more canteen, no more TP, most prob. no more lan...lol...so i should sign on right???....haha u wait long long lah!! but definitely I will super super miss u guys man!!

Overall my NS experience has been an enjoyable one de lor...I meant I had made friends whom were really cool and funny though there are some maybe work style I cannot tahan but still ok...but overall its a fun 2 years though the 1st year is mostly getting knock it down and quite a number of unfairness as well...but the 2nd year is much better=). Stories were always shared around as well as the everyday quirkiness and Otaku-ness as well in the platoon=P. After getting used to this 2 years life in SAF camp, i think it will be a ton of difference to be back at home and all. My room is getting cluttered and messy, =P I think I need to do some area cleaning lor. Haha..then at night we might tao pok someone , share stories, some acting chibi or bitches(wait they are already!!)...haha emo le=$

On our last night, we were talking about supernatural stuff and as usual they will talk about my BMT cuz my BMT a lot of funny things de, then HL suddenly talk about his taiwan de incident and freak us all out!!! in the end, jordan and me had to sleep with the 6 of them in section one...lol...but it was fun lor...we chat till 1.30 in the morning lor. Before that we also had KFC feast and stuff like tht on some of the nights off days...on the last days we also spray febreeze here and there started a tissue fight with benny...haha...all out war man!!! play TP and AHTD...though it was boring in camp but its nice to be part of smthg , to be part of this group of people, plt 5 ..UP AH!!!

Dont really feel this much in camp, but like jordan who has been kinda emo..ok ok no no its sentimental about it..lol...definitely will miss all of this lor and the guys...Anw its the end again and the start of another beginning of another chapter in my life again...Lets move on from the protectionism of being NSF and faced the outside world and its harshness and freedom(or back again for some).

Sales...

hey hey..this has been a super super tiring week for me sia...chiong Sitex sales over the past 4 days..at least chao chao earn 450 bucks le...as well as get to know a couple of friends lor. It was tough cuz the newbies plus me super zai sia..especially like wan ting she got like over1200 over the 4 days..I think I am the worse turn over rates lor...with only 18 sales over the 4 days...people were like over 25 like that...but ok lah...at 1st the 1st 2 days was damn demoralising cuz i only make like 5 sales then over the weekend I had 4 in sat as well as 8 in sunday but I dun think I will be called back to try again next year lor...cuz too lousy le=P but least I get to learn more about sales and stuff lor...very interesting to see how people actually react to different sales pitch as well as how to turn people minds on the spot...but man its damn tiring sia...10 hours walking back and forth as well as to entertain bo liao customers and as well to see some ugly side of indians..ok i mean black forest..ok no..erm some people...lol...most of the newbies were all females....wait its all sia...so yeah I am the only guy lor...wth...lemme see...total ard 13 girls + me ..wait wait before u are getting so excited..most are already attached le...oh man....wasted right??=P...lol what to do..all so pretty surely got bf de leh..hehe....anw I also go there is to earn $$ leh...most of them in NTU lor...think 1 from NUS and anthr 1 from SIM. The senior got ask them so eugene is whose fren?? they always no one's fren becuz my fren who recommend me the job pang seh me..hor samuel...lol...so in a way wo si bei sou liu to the NTU clique...haha...machiam like pet sia...there are a lot of interesting experience at this sitex. HUAT AH!!

Sianz

The past week also hadn't been really good either...lol...the nov batch ORD-ed on tuesday then for 3 days the whole platoon was damn super uber bored to the max sia...we just sleep, talk , sleep and play cards...super boring...then plus I developed a super super bad sore throat...for 2 nitez cannot sleep sia...every hr wake up to drink water...aiyah what else to say sia...super super sianz man...oh and must thanks zhenni for pei-ing me when I was sick...actually its just a couple of sms..lol

Nowadays, dont really know on what to look forward to...or rather maybe I am just plain lazy...lol...think it should be that lor...cuz its like mother ask me to settle on where to go in australia and I am really really lazy to do it lor...haiz...then there are other things where I lack the resolve to carry on doing and stuff like that....ah....pure laziness to the max...think i need someone to kick my a**...lol...

Sick....

This week haven't really be an exactly very lucky week sia...the toe injury which I have been nursing ever since my collision with james during a game of beach volleyball at sentosa which is about 4 weeks ago..its just been classified officially as a fracture sia...sianz...now i got a fractured toe...according to the MO, my toe might be crooked in the future and might not be able to bend anymore...wah..sianz sia...I m going to charge james man...lol....every month must pay some kind of a fee to me...lol

Then yesterday, I kenna a 39.3 fever, wah...super sianz sia....body feels totally hot one instant then muscle pains...neck felt congested...giddyness...and headaches...super buay tahan..mother got to keep sponging me and stuff like tht, thot can be ok in a day but seems the situation gotten worse, in the end sent to see the doc and get medicine at 11 plus pm...wanted to bk in tonite cuz edwin and the rest going to ORD tml le...and well.partly cuz they are treating the whole platoon prata and murtabak and tao huay!!!!...sobs...lol...but now i still feel a bit weak lah..anw my mc is till monday though..now tired sia...weak lor...

The Presidential Elections is over...and got a fractured toe...

This week has been an eventful week sia....1st I just realised that I had fracture my 4th toe , and that its all JAMES's fault!!!!!...lol....cuz he bang into me when We were playing beach volleyball during the platoon outing like 4 weeks ago sia...haha...mite caused my toe to be a bit crooked and might not be able to bend in the future according to the MO lor...but it shouldn't affect my running lah...but hey.. I am on status for the next 2 weeks..though gotta go back for X-ray here and there...sianz waste my transport fees sia...I WANNA ORD ALREADY!!!!! the nov. batch are ORD-ing next week!!!!....OMG!!!!!!!

This week, we also see Barack Obama becomes the 1st black president in American History...when the declaration of independance was admended to include blacks as an equal. I doubt any of the then pioneers had even imagined such a result in such a country. It's the same with Lewis Hamilton who won the F1 championship, hence becoming the youngest ever world champion at the young age of 23 , millions of dollars in his bank a/c...and pussycat as his gal...whoa...can he really keep his feet on earth??? Will he be mature to take on the challenge in next year? Never before have F1 had so many talented drivers from raikkonen to massa to kubica to alonso...so it will be interesting for next year championships.

After sashay-ing towards the white house with his transition team, President-elect Obama will be truly be put hard to test. Anw, its much better than the bimbo-tic Sarah Palin being VP sia...cannot imagine that man. A VP who had such poor foreign policies attributes, and now its more than ever that the American Governement must make good use of their diplomacies between adverseries and allies the same. Now, the Americans have opted for change, they got their change , but will they be able to handle the change....that will be what the world will be anticipating. On the economic side, being a democrat, Obama is all for the protectionist measures and to bring back jobs back to the states with unemployment ever rising...but will these ways hurt their exports?? And Uncle Sam have been suffering from trade deficits over the years. Anw, the incoming president have really a lot of stuff to do on his table, what are his takes on iraq and afghanistan? What about the ever ongoing 6-party talks with north korea??.

And Of cuz most importantly , the financial crisis that have turned the entire global economy upside down, left right centre....ok maybe not centre..lol..army terms=P...In the 20th century, we had seen the great depressions at the start of the century, followed by a short 8 year bull run. According to statistics, the 20th century had seen 3 bull and 3 bear within the 100 years. the longest bear was 20 years during the great depression..however with the various measures being put into place and unlike last time, information and $$ are transferring faster...most probably this time the bear run may be shorter than ever...right now we are already in the 8th year of the bear run...having started in the 2000...of cuz all these are relevant only to the US market , unlike Singapore which had been bullish ever since the SARS times in 2003. Unfortunately for us, our situation here is greatly linked to the US economy, so wadever is happening over there, it affects us as well. Wonder whether Mr Obama's adminstration is going to place in more regulations over the market due to his democrats' ideals ? If that's so , I think the world is going to ever turn more to China and India where the greatest demand will come from. But in any case, the whole world will be eagerly watching Mr Obama's every move and policies from now on...so it will be kinda interesting =P...As for the investor part of me, I will greatly like to invest in blue chips nowadays, with such defensive kind of stocks had drop from their perviously high prices...but need to work on getting more info about the companies....very interested in Hyflux at the moment, and they had just posted a good returns this quarter and with good EPS as well at around $2 plus...hopefully the market will bottom out next year...but think this bear run is going to end soon...Anw there is still a lot of stuff that I need to learn, so dun fully believe the stuff that I said over the stock markets...

ORD function

On thursday, we had our ORD function and..its...well...hai hao lor...lol...had a great time taking pics!! Lol...I am becoming more of a cam whore recently=P...lol...but anws there was the tequila girls whom are a duo who is suppose to entertain the guys and dance around lor...according to my sis, she was saying that's it sounds and looks sleazy...lol...maybe when I got time will post some pics here..there was alcohol pouring by the girls and a strip tease as well!!!...woo hoo~~...lol...the food wasn't that great either..felt a bit not worth the 24 bucks sia...then jun yi and jordan held the bravo coy hunkalicious contest and of cuz my team commander sure win de..he is a narcissist lei...lol...he had a wonderful body to boot...wad else can I say sia..lol...then the tequila girls went around..u knw like trying to pour liquor into our mouths..but hey its a whooping 5 bucks for a pour sia!!! but since every1 was like u knw high a bit..I also paid for it lor..actly its xian ming who paid for me de=P...so I had a gal pour..dunno really knw wad drink i had..chivas...whisky?? no..doubt its vodka...haha I dunno my drinks liao...hoho...anw there is a pic of me in facebook, which my friends uploaded..mine will have to wait awhile..cuz everytime i upload its so so slow man...lol... we had a song that OC had to sing which was meant to 'zhen' him one!!!..lol..super funny and there were the tequila girls trying to dance on stage..and its those..hmm..sexy dance...I think they like to do pole dance the best!!..haha...I think only one looks not bad...other than that...nthg much lor...lol...we also watched the ORD video montage done by jun yi again...but it was really not bad...soon 2 years have passed le...the november batch are also leaving us le...though there were lots of times where we complained here and there..but I think I might kinda missed such a life...slack at times, yet when there were OPS its like no sleep for at all for a few days...and the feeling of being away from home and reality ...haha I think thats a lousy thing to think about...but I am kinda addicted to freedom nowadays...lol...Also, this has provided me a some kind of a job da gan jue...at least it serves some purpose in life...maybe thats why I dun really hate army at all...colourful characters u have in there...lol...Like malcom forbes puts it " The worse job in the world is when u have no job"=)...ORD LOH!!!..actly there is still about 40 days more=P

I was almost got caught in a matrix again...its time to extract myself out of it...maybe I was almost close to finding the key to unlock the matrix...but if I really undo it, I wont be happy with it as well...so now I am going to be alone instead and see things from the outside and have faith in time that in time there will be a matrix thats is suitable for me to unravel...right now...I judged that I am not deemed fit to undertake this matrix in front of me...

Celebrating her birthday...

Oks....there are suppose to be photos here..but due to blogger's inability to load photos just now..so think u got wait for next time lor...lol...anw there isn't any photos about her and a few me only lah...so its like nthg really much to see bah...At 1st wanted to celebrate her birthday on her birthday, but she isn't free lor...think she got to celebrate with her family bah.

Anw on last friday, brought her to the Songs of The Sea at sentosa, ok..1st and foremost I think I totally screw it bigtime man...1st I was already late le...well, cuz I didnt leave house earlier and cant find any candles at home, rush down to central to buy some followed by rushing down to raffles city to collect the donuts from donut factory before rushing all the way to harbourfront...oh man...late by a full 20 minutes..WTF sia....totally got pawned to the max...i sucks...lol...ok better dun put myself down any furthur liao...anw after that went to eat dinner lor at this mediterranean restuarant and she wanted to eat prawns sia...I was like...u sure a not...u got allergy rite..then she was like..nah...today dun think got the feeling that will have it...woah ever has an allergy been seasonal sia...lol...along the way marcus saw me and he called me to say that he was behind me and kept asking me who she is...wad the...lol...then so happens tht he is eating in the same place as we are...so it was kinda qiao lor...lol...but anw..I think I was like so...blur or switch off that day, that I cant seem to concerntrate on her conversations sia...kept hearing wrong things and forgetting stuffs that she said...lousy sia I am..then after that we went to take the monorail over the sea lah...actly she prefered the cable car de, but before tht i ask her to choose between 3 letters B,C or M and she chose M..so too bad lor..but thot that we could get the return trip but in the end, we didnt managed to make it in time as well...

So once we reached there, we went to watched the show....well it wasnt really tht interactive, but maybe we are all singaporeans and stuff..lol...or maybe cuz I was busy with the camera so I didnt really got the time to properly watched it...so I thot its a bit sianz...however aesthetically wise, its quite nice sia, with the fire-works and water sprays around..so its kinda cool...After that we went to take a photo with a statue of a lead character...ok..lets put it as a cute character in the show( its a fish btw)...so we stand together..and the photo-grapher asked us to hug...and she was like ...waoh no no...then I was like..er..yeah no..(sianz...lol) so after the 1st pic, she asked us to...well least put a hand around each other, then I just put my hand over her shoulder and bend down cuz scared block the statue then she put her hand around my waist( hehe..thats kinda good=P)...the next 2 pics were like put our hands together to do some sort of 'photo magic' stuff...then after that we chose our pics lor..then we chose the same cuz I was thinking where got one take this the other take something else...she chose the hands over shoulders one...

After that ask her to choose between P and S which is siloso or palawan beach , at 1st she chose palawan but after that saw the bus to siloso, then also lazy so took tht...which is to my surprise it was heng lor...cuz the next day newspaper said that at palawan beach, a dead body was found there at the afternoon...scary sia...imagine at night there...wth sia...anw so went to siloso lor...then managed to found a place, at 1st she didnt want to go to the beach de...but after much persuasion, she relented lor. So yeah at siloso beach, set up the donuts and light those ' magic' candles and the light sticks around it...then I was so gan chiong that ask her to turn around , forgot to sing her a birthday song and kept asking her to blow the candles but she cannot...lol..and I kept laughing, asking her to carry on and she finally blew it out!!! the manufacturer sucks sia...but I forgot to video it down!! haiz..too stress out again...after that we put the real candles and took pics of it...

However there is one more surprise which is the mini- doughnuts which I put 9 DIY flags to signify each of it...lol...also took pics about it..then after that we started throwing light sticks here and there..I threw 2 into the water...kinda cool...but ok ok can see pig throwing knifes at me...*dodge a few le...AHHHH I got stabbED ! !!!*...but stop throwing after she scolded me=P...actly, on hindsight it was rather bad of me to be doing that...never think of the consequences...=$...anwthen after that packed up and tried to catch the cable car...but we missed it...so we went home lor...

Sent her home, along the way suddenly talk about my hair and genes of my parents and concluded that I am an alien. Then I was like..wah lao...now say I am an alien...saded sia...she said that she likes aliens...then she paused and said her fav. idol must be an alien as well...at that point I was like wah...so u r trying to console me that at least u like an alien like me...* ok maybe I am thinking too much here*...so sent her up...then after exchange our goodbyes le, and I was going back home. Suddenly asked me back , thought what happen sia...then she passed me a thank u card which she wrote the day before...kinda felt weird cuz like she said u are a good friend and thanks for a ' she is sure will be a thoughtfut' present....also wonder wad she meant tht she initially want to give me the card early this year le...feels like a 'thank u for doing all these wonderful things for me , friend' =$...haiz sianz sia...quite fan ren at times also...lol...

Hypothesis. thoughts. reflections. Starless skies.

That day during the chalet, kenneth jio both me and gk who in turn jio benny out for a walk along the pasir ris park which is like just behind the chalet there. Knowing that I was bai ka, still make me walk around like siao...lol...but its at least a time out from the rest..need some quiet time mah...lol...so we took a walk here and there, finally settling down at a shelter. Then I started asking benny about whether have he woo a girl before and as expected it was a rather benny-like response which as usual sounds totally random and illogical..wont go much here though=P..so we talk a few stuffs with the frogs croaking in the background like 'huhhhhhh', 'huhhhhhhh'....lol cuz its in a drain so the echos were quite loud...oh and there was a pair of good looking gals whom walk passed...lol...ok thats besides the points....so we started our walk back cuz we were getting bombarded with mosquitos..wah kao..reminds me of camp sia..lol

Along the way, gk started talking about his experience with a gal that he used to like...whom should I put it that way?? or rather i think now he is at a 'dunno wad to do' phase...just like me...lol...so we chatted about stuff that we were more or less trapped in. Somehow we both have a lot to share in common, though we were not really tht close in camp and our interest not really much..well..maybe hebe=P...he is stuck with a situation that now he doesn't really knows wad to do..anymore....somehow maybe a bit like mine as well...I mean I seriously felt tht I had hit a brick wall....i tried to scale over it, dig below it but the wall seems to go all the way down, cannot go round it cuz its damn freaking long...in order words the brick wall is really really dense or maybe I am just damn lousy. Given that we both are in boys school for 10 years and only just recently thrown into our baptism of fire in JC, u could say we are pretty much struggling to comprehend girls....seriously I have given up hope...lol...I am just tired lah...Anyway, we both in the end came out with a hypothesis about them...lol...but cannot say here...haha. My motivation is dying......I cant seem to keep up with it le...like wad gk says..we dun knw wad else is left for us to do....aiyah...suan le...think so much also not much use rite??

Updates

Ok...this whole week had been a rather..well...wad can I say..slack and relaxing week...went to sentosa again on tuesday..after that we had a platoon chalet from wednesday to friday morning...bought a new bermudas, at a good price as well...lol...so far chalet oks lor...a more chill pill and relaxing retreat lah...mahjong, cards, pool and PS2 thts all...but had fun cooking lunch and learning how to play mahjong lor...lol...but dun dare to play with money only...haha

Sentosa Outing With Random Peeps=P

I am stunned by the weird dress sense...lol

Before we left for 'overseas'

On the bumpy bus ride

I am looking at the 'mum-daughter' combo...ROFL

I am still darker...lol

Last pic of the day

On saturday, went out with a totally random group of strangers sia...1st time sia..hmm well unless u want to count the last time with james they all with melvin, iphyllia and joseph..which is like totally kenna pawned with SR people everyone...lol...well this time ain't really totally that different with a whole group of YJ now...lol. There is samantha who is Pig's friend, Xiao ling and Hui Qing which is Samantha's frenz plus samantha's bf, Shen yang and his twin friends joshua and nicholas( another set of twins!!!)...haha so its like totally messed up in that sense sia...lol...And pig dunno when got this * I so want to pinch u * fetish man...she like pinch my face for like 5 times sia!!!..OMG...its like no one ever ever done that since I was P6 by my great aunt...dun care lah its her own risk..my face so oily also pinch...lol...must be hui qing cuz she is like...well...a 'small kid'=P...not very tall and a talks a bit like a kid...hahaha doesnt look like a 20 year old plus she is older like almost all of us man...and xiao ling is like damn tall for a gal...thats why they like mum and daughter..haha. Actually both hui qing, xiao ling and me are aquainted before..cuz they were justin ho's 1st 3 months friends and last time he invited us to his house during chinese new year that time..haha...no wonder I found her super familiar with her actions and her height...wow...shocking man!!

At 1st met sam at the mrt station then after that met up with the rest of the gals and...wah kao...their talking session is totaly random to the max sia..almost like watching lucky star sia...then we went to sentosa ard an hour of random-ness...lol...Sadly both xiao ling and hui qing not enthu. about beach sports at 1st lor...oh and I just realised something I still haven crossed the bridge yet to that small offshore island=$...ahaha....then after awhile of nothing much except for climbling a tree lor...lol...the pic is on facebook...i really got climbed sia!!! haha...

Then the guys came over and we started to have a bit of fun with the volleyball...hoho..and the days of training in camp has started to pay off...i was kinda zai...hehe...ok lah cuz I play before mah..lol..but the fake court a bit small as well and we kept hitting the tree with the ball...lol...and shen yang totally lost at volleyball...So we decided to take it to the next water..i meant level...lol...actually its samantha who wants it lor...keep asking it...then we no choice lor...and pig kept poking at my fats..saded..hey its only a bit...ok compared to the rest..I lose...lol...GYM!!!!...haha...so we played in the water. Wah once in water totally mayhem sia!!! thts when the fun starts..lol

We guys decided to throw the girls in one by one...but sam already jumped in herself...so its lile...forget it lah...then next is pig and we totally threw her in..lol..lucky never lost her specs in the process...lol....then after that we wanted hui qing but she started to show a serious face..then it was like..ok ok we got the msg...so lastly it was xiao ling..haha it was classic sia..the way she was thrown in...We played like monkey here and there and must hit the head on the monkey..and at 1st I set the record of 16 but then xiao ling broke mine at 20...and it was on me sia!!!...lol...but later I got my record at nicholas at 21..woohoo..lol..it was funny sia...and did i mention tiring....sometimes I was beached on the beach and hui qing will come around and splash water at me...haha tempts me to keep splashing her back...haha...tempt me to throw her into the water...but on advice, better not=P...lol...After that play luge and take the sky ride and realised that pig's fear of heights is serious...haha worse than me...but the view was not bad...cool man..oh and we catch a bit of the lights display on the sea nearby with the fireworks and stuff. Later that night send pig to bugis and she was rather late for her meeting with her bf and her carrot...lol...by the time i went home it was ard 11 plus le...lol...lucky never go and play pool if not sure late like siao de lor...haha...Overall, it was damn fun sia!! but tiring sia...must be the salt water..lol...

Kui shin-bo Outing

Last Friday, went with some of my platoon mates to eat at kui shin-bo, which is at Suntec. Haha...its actually my second time there cuz last time my uncle brought my siblings and I there before. Arrived late though and got lost momentarily in suntec...lol...wah reaching there..the guys were like devouring everything liao!!!...hahaha very obvious its NSF guys eating out...cuz the sashimi we like spam more than 100...lol...oh and the soft shell crab was great as well..we ate until super full man!! And we each other pay about 32 bucks lor..but it's was good stuff...After that we went walk around(to digest mah=P)...We went to this cosplay shop and we started our usual 'benny suaning' exercise...lol...hah and we chose various school uniforms and costumes for him to try...and he will give his usual ' fuck u' gesture!!!..haha classic to the max!!!..and we were playing with the dolls and making fun of benny, bet the sales girl...oops should be maid or was it a school girl??..hmm cant remember..lol...kinda pissed off with a bunch of guys anyhow touch the shops stuff...lol..Oh and opposite there is a shop that sells movie posters as well....hoho...Iron man is like damn cool sia!!!..but the joker one..ehto..give me the creeps(shiver)...then we hang out at the arcade for awhile. Haha then I went to toys"r"us to buy 2 designer collection of hot wheels cars..actually was looking for the mitsubishi double shotz car...but it was unavailable=(...saded to the max sia...its like the coolest car around sia...well..in that collection lor...ahaha but got the lotus and a hot wheels concept car lor...cool!!...then after that we went to MS to watch House Bunny...lol...it was funny sia...especially with the lead always saying in some weird voice whenever she wants to remember names...hahaha...then after that went home lor...super full sia tht day=P...

I am going out but they are just entering..

Yesterday, spent my day pei-ing thing han before his enlistment today..we went to eat breakfast and after that we went to watched 'Connected'...haha...must take the time here to say a little about the movie=P...actually its a remake of the US version of Cellular. So I wont elaborate about the content. I was wondering whether in real life, if u receive such a call, will u answer it?...haha I dont think I will lor...well definitely not crashing my car into a lorry of pepsi and firing a gun at a handphone shop...haha...but the movie is great...should go watched!!!...lol...ok then ting han also like ben , both shaved their hair before they enlist...sia lah..in camp only $2 leh...lol...haha then after that, spent the night with ben song and ren and johnny and tin...from 10 to 1230..lol..and ben was like super worried over the supernatural stuff at Orion and things like that=P....haha and we gave him a super crash-course on everything SAF..lol...from the rules to a bit of tricks on how to survive here and there...so hopefully both can enter command school loh!!and ben should go OCS...I will be there when u commissioned BRO!!!...ahaha and ting han as well!!!...how time flies sia..2 years liao...

O-R-Ding!!!

Ok folks now's the real deal man!!....I am going to have less than 10 working days in this month!! hehe....how cool is that!!!=P....O-R-D mood!!...We hand over our operations and equipments on 7th Oct. and luckily the conditions that we hand over wasn't like last year...in the sweltering heat man!!! So alpha, u all are lucky!!!...handed the sprinter over to their pioneer driver and tell him all the stuff that he needed to know..took photo with my dear baby...actually there was 4 sprinters=X...lol..but my baby for tht day is no. 51..haha.. And guess wad, my junior was at alpha as well and he also junior...lol..he still recognise me!!=P...I totally forgot him le...then was just sharing my 'by left' experiences...haha...We had a simple parade to hand over, then we dally for some time and book out le...for our very very long break...haha

So now therein lies the endings of another chapter in my life...hmm...how to say...now its like knowing its all going to end le, after 2 years of NS...from BMT to CBRE. A bit sad..lol...think I am going to missed all the OPS that I am lucky to take part in..from AS to AMM to NDP 07/08 to F1...knowing some sect. com. personnel. Being quite tua pai at sweeps=P...haha dunno whether the unit next time will have such ops liao cuz our ultimate tua tou says maybe our urban ops a bit redundant...

Actually, if u ask me how was my army life, I think it has been a rather fruitful time, unlike maybe others who see it as a super waste of time...but...haha I think its rather fun. Well maybe cuz I am quite lucky and thankful for being in a great section in BMT and a fun( able to tolerate) platoon in CBRE...so u can say I was quite heng...made some cool friends and confidates. Oh and one thing about Army is that u dun need to use ur brain a lot...so its quite perfect for a lazy person like me..haha and I like the feeling of being in camp sometimes though its damn boring and sianz cuz its like u are in a different island lor...haha away from stuff...maybe thats why ppl sign on...lol..a bit dun want to revert back to civilian=X..OMG wad am I talking!!!!

Being a 3 in 1 guy

Well...yesterday I became 3 persons man..a chauffeur, a shopping bag stand and a 'if 2 high can help me reach' boy...Cuz Samantha's Vietnamese friend is in town and I so happen that I can drive and so happen to be free at night and so happen to be a good friend of her, hence I undertake this job. Not much benefits...can drive a sedan and look at a beautiful but rather quiet girl for awhile...though she also got suan me as well...wah kao...hehe lucky I know my way around town...if not super sia suay!!! And i think i suck at driving again..haiz...brakes too hard...*shakes head*...

Anw its was quite a weird night out for me thou=X...though it has been a couple of times liao, everytime my best friend goes back to UK...yi yi bu se de...lol...

Thoughts...

What is faith? It can be define as having a religion to adhered too. It can also be something that you can hang on to when in times of need. I was just chatting with a friend of mine whom opened a blog shop, and she really want to see it work. When I brought up a similar business model to my family...haha..lets say that I had hit open a dead end. There were many reasons why I shouldn't do this and that...She ask why leh...then I lay out the reasons and things, I sort of realised that the feeling of fear is creeping up on me. I was afraid. I asked her what was the reason she set up the blog shop? She said was to earn extra income=P...haha true true and thats her motivation to see it come thru but maybe its also because of the work that she had put in it=)...u knw? I think the feeling is akin to seeing ur kid grows up and all.

Today, was making salad so I thought that I should try a new concoction or rather dressing to match the vegetables. I was anyhow buying stuff and mixing around. I made a mistake, I bought un-ripe avocado and in the end got to throw away. Well needless to say, kenna 'suan' by my mum...Tried using sesame oil to mix with the salad and lemon juice, of cuz kenna negative comments by my mum again...it seems that mistakes is such a no-no in the house. But surprisingly it turns out not bad by my standards...lol..thats not really creditable ain't it...but my sis said it was not bad...

Point taken is that sometimes there is no one beside u when u make a certain decision, make the choice that U urself is comfortable with...if its a mistake...so be it. You all might be thinking why I started off today's entry with faith. =)...Well without faith there is no confidence, even if everything seems to be agianst u, faith is smthg that will pull u thru.

I always like to ask this question to myself : " What I want from this one life on this planet?"..maybe in a sense I always forced myself to perform to too high expectations and in a way, because of the question I dun have a clear goal and hence the laziness sets in...probably=)

Felipe massa negotiating the tracks at anderson bridge...but too bad he couldnt deliver the goods.

The 1st ever Singtel Singapore Grand Prix

Well well...what an exciting weekend for both F1 enthusiasts and the local Singaporean! The 1st ever night race ever held in Formula 1 turns out to be a success!!! And the number of crashes I predicted was still a bit off the mark!!=P An astonishing finish for Fernando Alonso, coming back from the dead at pole 15 to win the race was by no means a miracle and a huge stroke of luck. Who would have thought that Piquet Jr would had crashed at the straight lane of the floating platform(though i was predicting that would be one of the crash sites earlier=P)...and once the safety car was out...history was changed. And at this year F1 grand prix, there were numerous mistakes by the mechanic teams, no less shocking would be seeing Felipe Massa driving his red ferrari off with the fuel pipe still intact and an unfortunate mechanic flying in the air...woah!...take took precious time off plus a 10 second penalty...he must be wondering which gods he had been offending man...suay to the max. Actually this race could be say as there for his taking by getting pole position in the qualifying rounds as the Marina Bay circuit is definitely one place extremely difficult to find places to overtake, but the surprises that heppened on sunday was definitely the changing point. The Ferraris were totally owned by the track man!...Well it has been no doubt an enjoyable race! And it would be up to Singapore to live up to its high standards that it has set itself in her inaugural Singapore F1 debut.

What I had also noticed was that the commentary were full of praise for our beloved city skyline that seems to blend the lighted tracks to it. Commentators were complimenting us like for the past 3 days and you know what its absolutely alright. Epic shots were like F1 cars driving under Benjamin Sheares bridge with citizen's cars on the way home...cool! Oh and there were scenes of the cars travelling along the padang there and the CBD at the background!!Sweet!!

Watched the race with the bball gang and in a way to celebrate Ben Song 's last 10 days of freedom before he goes into Army=P...haha but apparently only jon tan and me were the more enthu. about the sport with me explaining on most questions fielded by MJ as well. haha...Oh and many thanks for januari for calling me in the middle of dinner to let me hear the sounds of the F1 cars zooming past her at turn 1!!It was deafening sia, but cool to the max..hehe so a big thank u!=)...Oh oh and did I mention that I meant some of the drivers at the paddock area where I was doing my SS on thurs night and fri. wee early morning...haha cool as kimi=P

Should I leave this island behind and go out into the world?

Personal Space

This is something that I had always known to be a problem but I never really addressed the issue till the past few days. U see. There had been a problem with me at times, alright I meant frequently=P. Its the feeling of emptiness and not knowing what the f*** am I doing on this planet. lol..forgive me for the vulgarities, still haven completed my CCC( Civilian Conversion Course) yet...haha. A good friend of mine, He once told me about the lack of personal space that NS can cause you to feel, and hence caused weird or illogical behaviour of NS guys to certain things. Of course, I am not only limiting this problem to NS only but even to everyone out there.

Have you ever feel lost? Have you ever felt that there is special something or piece that is missing from your life at this very moment? Have you ever question yourself ' Is this the kind of life I want?'

Well, I am sure that there are times that many of us have definitely felt it at some point of our life. If you haven't, then in time you might...lol...or might not =P. Recently, like I had pointed out to my friends through out this year was that I am easily agitated and stuff. Well one thing that I had sorted of is that there is a lack of personal space in my life. In that sense, it's caused by both me and NS in particular. With NS , I am always stuck in the confines of a camp and its regulations and rules. After booking out, my subconscious mind is very annoyed at decisions which seems to be out of control or people who are trying to control the freedom of my time and all. So I also used lots of other 'drugs' like anime, going out, forcing myself to study, so to numb this feeling of lacking the personal space in my life.

I had always been searching for the answer to it. Is it a girlfriend? Is it $$? Is it the feeling of studying? Is it...Is it...lots more. Recently, I started just picking up books and started reading just as once before in my early stages of life. I started to enjoy it and now thirst for more readings out there. Its as if books can provide me an avenue of escapism out of the harsh realities of life and all...it can bring me to places never before...it can challenge my perspectives, my mindset, my logics and so much more. Then, writing. Penning my thoughts and all onto the piece of paper, it sorted my feelings, gives me a cleared picture and let me understand the situations. U know..it all seems so...calm...so peaceful all of a sudden, even I shudder at this kind of calmness!! Now, just as was I 8 years ago, that I want to put my thoughts into words and that it shall be metaphorized with nature...it feels good. Haha..lo and behold...after 4 years of bumming around, 4 years of crashing around, 4 years of not being in contact with my soul...this is the kind of 'therapy' that I needs and the strange thing is that I had been doing it until sec 2 but I stopped. Kimochi!!!=D


The cold wind blowing against my face, as I acknowledge the coldness touches my skin, my soul is cleanse. The heart finds calm and peace with the clear blue sky above me. Well today at 6.38pm of Friday 26th September 2008, the sky seems at a light blue, with streaks of clouds borne by the wind stretches across the sky. The darkening along the horizon of the flats signals the ending of another day and soon we all would be asleep and the next day will come along.=)...Somehow, writing and blogging has been able to bring a sort of calm and peace to my already complex human character=P. Oh and the street lamps have just turned on like beacons of light to show the way of life in darkness...lol...ok it seems quite weird of me to phrase it like that..haha. Just going with the flow of the train of thoughts in my mind.

Oks...now the whole world is crazy and panicky over the fall of major Wall-Streets giants as well as the nationalization of AIG. Hoho...and singaporeans getting scared about AIA( which is a subsidiary of AIG) is going to fall...Of course my heart goes out to the peeps whoa being retrenched due to the collapse of Lehmahn Bank as well as the possible lay off about 60,000 employees of Merril Lynch. However, from this so-called major financial catastrophe..oks...its quite major...some how I found it to be a very interesting case study to learn about it and how when regulations goes wrong and greed sets in, the whole foundations of a financial sector can be shaken. There had been a couple of detractors especially in USA about Mr Paulson decision to use public funds to save the various companyies involved, but given the similar position in Japan during the early 1990s, USA cannot afford to not use public funds to save it. There can be major repercussions in the global economy should AIG fall for example...anw from what I had read in the papers, its not really a total write down of money but the companies had to repay the government in a given time period. Anw I think the main question will be see what the federal reserve and the government is going to handle this situation in the upcoming weeks and how long the US economy is going to be bearish. According to my fren's fren who had done tons of research into the history as well as techicals of the sector, he predicted a whooping 10 year bear run!!! which is like..woah..damn long..anw now this situation as cause a huge influx of Asian investments in the USA. How ironic that now in a way Asians are saving the western economy whereas there are still some ra**** issues going on in the land of capitalism=p

A missing puzzle

Similarly like the movie 'Mamma Mia', have you ever felt that there is something that is missing in your life? Like a jigsaw puzzle that is lacking a few pieces here and there...something that u cannot pin-point out now?. Well that feeling just sort of came back today....I had it previously..somehow there is always this feeling that I am lacking something and no..its not something material lah. Feels that my life is kinda boring..and stuff like that...as well as a clearer picture of what I want to do in the future.

Was waiting for Sam. when I thought of this...Dunno whether its the feeling that I want to just explore the world and leave everything I know behind here...I have always dream of flying to places with the huge land spaces..the day when I can look out of the window or maybe even tentage=P and see hills roll over one another...to see the flowers that paints the rolling hills..to see the stars that covers the entire dark blue sky overheads..to hear the river rushing down over rocks...maybe its my mind desires for the intimacy with nature again...and yeah I at times feel quite sick and tired of the city-life here. Ever since I went to Blue Mountains in Sydney, I began to fall in love with nature and the huge and significant mark it has left on me. Will I be able to own a lake-house or a tree-top house in the mountains ?? To have a vacation home close to nature...haha that would be like a dream.If u ask me between earning big bucks in office buildings, or managing a B&B homestay close to nature and living quite primitively...I would choose the homestay any time.

Do u all know smthg? I used to write stories when I was younger..well not exactly fiction though..I am not tht gd sia!=P...usually its more of like a kind of experience that I had and I tried to translate into a story. Well...I tried a romance type once....it never made it past the 1st chapter...haha. There is this one draft that I finished before...its more of a travelog or auto-biography??..haha its my 1st trip to melbourne back in 1997. It had 13 chapters..I lost the hard copy already=(....I spent 2 months of my school holidays to completer it..xiong to the max! Somehow I like writing or creating stories or giving my views on stuff...thats why I awalys like to write essays to a certain extent...and my GP teacher always says that I had interesting content the only problem...was mis-interpretation of the question or the structure was wrong...lol...Since young, I had always priced Content to be more important than anything else, be it essay structure or grammer..haha...thats why language marks always so little=P. Maybe thats why till to this day..whenever I am feeling emo. or stuff, I tend to write it all down and re-read all over again and stuff like that. Haha...that may be the reason why I blogged as well=D...

I used to take a personality test...and they somehow or rather points out that I am a bit of a dreamer-type of person=P...lol...maybe thats why sometimes I tend to zone out...cuz lost in my dream world!!...haha...Maybe thats also proves why I always think a lot about stuffs...haha

Oh another notion just zipped through my mind a second ago...it might be that like in movies the plot seems to be so simple, so..eh..happily ever after like. So I always want to strived for that sort of gan jue so I always feels like something is missing!=P

Whew! long entry to the max!!..haha told ya that I had the feeling of writing..oops..I meant blogging...lol...just the notion of letting it all out of my 24/7 'think-a -lot' mind=P

MAMMA MIA(2008)

Well well...so it seems that retro is truly back in the house man!!!..lol...AbbA songs which are my parents time of music was used here in this musical/movie. The plot is Sophie, is going to get married and she found a diary that her mum wrote, and realised that there were 3 possible guys whom could be her father. So in order to know the truth, she invited all 3 guys to her wedding! And all hell or rather fun broke loose on the idyllic greek island.

Ok..my 1st opinion of the movie was like...middle-aged women having a ball of time and the humour comes from the self-depreciating women. However, underneath it all its about knowing what you really wants and stuff. In this movie, Meryl Streep was the lead and she was like everywhere, prancing around and jumping here and there like a youngster.Can see that she was having a ball of a time acting in this movie.

Another thing I watched this movie was because the 1st few songs that I ever listened to were AbbA songs so its like..u know..nostalgic man...ahaha. Songs like 'winner takes it all', 'Dancing Queen','Mamma Mia' and 'Waterloo'...its was great fun just humming to the tune of it...Like wad zhenni puts it' Recommend for anyone who needs Music Therapy'...lol

The Lake House(2006)

The Lake House(2006)

Well...it has been kinda late...lol...yeah 2 years in the waiting as well=P. Anw this show that aired in 2006 is a remake of the korean show, Il Mare...which is also the same storyline that is. The show is about a guy(keanu reeves) who moves in to a house on the lake which was desgned and built by his father. He open the letter box to receive a letter whom was the previous owner of the property. However the catch here is the previous owner(sandra bullock) is 2 years from the future. So they began communicating with each other thru the mail-box outside the lake house. And love develops and how eventually they will get together.

To me, this movie..hmm....how to put it...seems very soothing...maybe its because of the wonderful scenery where the lake house is situated or maybe the pure and simple love between the 2 leads and how it is able to transcends time. Its those movies that seemed so perfect..so ideal...so well impossible to happen in real life.Well who knows there is such a thing..after no. 15th fact of myself...lol..so ya why not?=P. Imagine that the person that you are truly meant to be was like 2 years before or after your time...its seems so ...surreal..so impossible...wah...I dont think I could even live myself in such a fantasy man! But than again how I wish I could be in such a situation man!!...haha

New Look

Oks folks this is not exactly what i had in mind..but so far found it to be quite nice and simple lor...actually wanted to find the blue sola(sky in jap.)...but apparently there is very little to choose from and some actually sucks...though there are many night skies lor...lol...people prefer the dark or rather emo. stuff..lol...so hopefully its not bad lor....anw its quite pleasing to the eye i think...haha cuz its black and all i think...maybe my next skin should be more brighter lor...lol...well added some new stuff by the sides...change my profiles leh..hehe*tongue in cheek*...Enjoy reading then...oh and give some comments..esp. the profile part..I take damn long can!!!somemore I am not an IT person...haha

Somehow felt like want to write an emo. entry=P..must be write too much of it le thts why got this sort of feeling..lol...haha i am an EMO FREAK!!!! anw finished watching Ouran le...kinda sad cuz its like its ENDED!!!!...oh man...sobs sobs...lol...actually though the show is a shou-jo anime...which meant for girls the lah...but surprisingly its fantastic!! not too random and not too complicated but with bits of the various character's life that is intriguing and want to keep the viewer wanting more...haha

The show also touches on many things like everyone has a past behind them or many do not know what they are doing in life or some have personality problems since young and thats why they are like that. It also shows some business sense as well such as the characters knowing how to bao zhuang themselves to be appealling to the various numbers of girls out there. it also shows that an idiot can also run a club together because of how he treat his club members and the wonderful and accurate ability to observe and know a person well.

Eugene recommends!!!=P

this an amv about the latest anime i am watching...its really good!! haha..got randomness, lameness and bananaskin...lol...highly recommended....oh and the name is ouran school high host club.=)

Earths...

Everyone know thats there is only one earth. However, in actual fact, there are many many numerous earths that are existing, that are alive at any given point of time. The earth that I am saying here is the world that each individual of us sees...on scientific terms I of course cannot say that there is another earth out there could I=P not qualified enough!!....but there might be!! who knows?!..on a philosophical view, yes there are many earths.

There is this saying " What I see may not necessarily be what you are viewing". This is a classic saying as we all knows and it truly epitomizes the notion of many earths in each and every one of us. In each of this earth, the time that revolves it, the conditions of the earths are all different, due to some mystical forces that are yet unknown to man have altered the landscape. However there are instances of some earths being the same. So when one tries to jump into the another earth, there will be sufferings at 1st as the various conditions sets in, the view of this earth in space may seems beautiful but the conditions below may not. And hence if ur body can handle it, u may live in it but it will take some time. However, some may not live to see another day and retreat.

Ok...maybe it seems a weird comparisons...lol...wrong word i think..aiyah but anyway trying to improve my ang moh!!! sorry meant english=$ An example is the earth that I see is not truly the earth that u will see...maybe in space it might appear the same but once u have entered the atmosphere,it is most probably different as conditions are different. The conditions that defined various earths can be events and expereiences that others never had or haven't had. let says that a particular earth had advanced a long way than others, it will tend to try to influence other worlds to try to link up with the rest. But most of time this advanced earths may not be able to understand this..ehto...luo hoh the earth and assume that their certain way of life is the right way but due to different conditions it is not. ok i think the more i think the more analogies are coming up=P...in a nutshell, understand the other earth's culture and people within, communicate with the population, do not expect them to follow ur way, dont impose ur laws on other worlds...and we will see less wars. Sadly, instincts and emotions usually dont make this happen.

Stars...

Watched a few space movies recently, from space chimps to Star wars to wall.E and it got me thinking about space and beyond.

Everyday walking at night, out in the field during field camp, sleeping in the blue mountains in Sydney. The night sky never fails to amaze me, the stars seems to be everywhere, it makes us humans feel that we are so so small...the feeling of the wonderful lights in the dark sky...appreciating the ability to take in the wonderful sights. the stars...always seems so magical,so enchanting...always so up there in the sky...impossible to reached to...we,humans on earth spent so much of our time, even from generations to generations of homo sapiens, we continue to study and understand the stars, developed new technology and vehicles(aka space-crafts) to reach to them...but sometimes never able to reach them( be it to far or various space-weather conditions). Even in times of war and illness, the stars never fail to fascinate mankind, no time to learn about them, mankind will still find ways to preserve them in his memory with inventions as well as to keep in 'touch' with them(ie. the giant hubble telescope in the USA). Somehow no matter how much time and effort that we put into understanding and learning about them, our knowledge is just only a speck of space dust in the entire universe out there. We are down here on earth and these cosmos are up up there out of this world, the difficulty lies here to understanding these stars. However, given the strong will and in a way defiance if i may put it, mankind will never give up on his search for the knowledge and understanding of the stars. There had been many who had suffer a lot in the search for it, and scientists whom had met up with financial problems or wadsoever had given up on it, but there are some whom will be able to make it...to find more pieces to fix the puzzle. Maybe we will reach the echleon of hyperspace=)

The laws of the Universe

1) Every small little component has a role to play to meet the goal.

If u look carefully, in everything that is existent in this world,from the smallest microrganism to the wonderful engineering marvels of the time, the Bird Nest in bei jing to even..yes....our very own Singapore flyer. this law applies as well and..now this...strange but true as well even to humans and their emotions as well as ties between humans. Every component plays a part. Lets look at the Flyer's amphitheatre, there it is made up of 2 different arcs. If u had noticed, there are many bolts or nuts that maintain the shape of the arc. The bolts or nuts are almost similar in every way from the diameter to the width of it, however similar they are, but each of them are differnt. In wad way u may ask, its the unseen that they are different. Each bolt are subjected to different forces of energy and the net force acting on it are different in magnitude. Hence,as u can see, the bolts though similar but are different in their roles to maintain the arc, which is their goal.

2)Cause and effect

For some who have study physics, the newton's law states that for every force there will be an equal and opposite force acting on an object(if i m not wrong=P)...this is also very thru in life and stuff...haha so who says that sometimes physics cannot be applied in the real world=). take back my words that I always say to my frenz and teachers=P..my bad!

If u think about it, many laws that were created, or rather derived in this world. It all seems to link back to the laws of the universe, and there are many more that are waiting to be found. Strangely that sometimes the answers could be so easily found in nature, the answers were there all along but given the complexity of the human mind and as well as fate, many of us just passed them. If learning the ways of life or universe was an exam, I would say that our surroundings are our refrence book, the problem with passing this exam is finding the right answer out of this very very thick reference book and apply to the question.

Grumblings

Oks..so the problem is always time isn't it...people are fighting for your time and I am also got to queue up and wait for a number before I am able to meet up with u...woah...and some how or rather I will always be the one who join the queue late and missed out on the time slots. How interesting sia. Everytime I ask u out...juz to even to tell u the problem...I also in the end end up waiting for a queue number...woah...how cool is tht man...

I try to always say tht the problem lies in myself or other factors but then...but then everytime I think about it...I get utterly pissed off sia...I hate it when there isn't a confirmation, I hate it when something crops up...then nvm...I understand there isn't really much friends tht we have in common....but sometimes could u at the very least, from time to time, msg how are u? or tell me smthg abt wad happen or wanna meet up...it has been a bloody one month since u last just MIA sia..wad are u trying to tell me? I knw u used to say tht eugene is someone who dun require much attention in other words not much 'maintenace'..but somehow every machine needs a routine check up here and there...even so I am also human...everytime I just paused to tink..I get worked up...wah..this isnt the supposedly calm and think before i act eugene man..i also know...but I just lose it..i dun understand it as well...if i can treat ben loh, henry like tht...i cannot treat u the same...i also dunno why sia....is there such a huge difference??

Or In the end I am just fed up with the fact tht time is never enough with the both of us...family,frenz, bf for u....family,army, frenz for me...

Or maybe I dunno u well enough Or maybe I have change to be some kind of rash, impulsive and insenstive, selfish person...so can someone tell me the answer??...how ironic is tht maybe after 1 big round...its my fault...haha...

AHM 2008

Last Sunday, was my 2nd 21km AHM rum at the marina bay area again!! It was kinda sucky because the padang was reduce to mud, mud..and more mud and my beloved Asics white and orange shoe became only one colour..brown!!!!...wah...saded sia....totally took the fun out of everything man!...the route was more or less the same but the starting part was shorten and there is this off road trail that start behind the east coast park towards the marina barrage( courtesy of SCE!!!! wah kao...own people shio hai!!=X)....then its even more mud time! and mosquitos as well. The run over the marina barrage was indeed nice because of the view of the city skyline as well as the ocean... then the run through marina south was kinda struggling, saw my PS kenna cramps but got sargent eugene( not me!!! he is a regular and quite g*** l** person as well) to help him. Finally reached the city which left only 1 km and felt my left thigh going to kenna muscle pull le...and left only 6 mins to my target of 2hr 45 mins(got 3 days off leh!!)...then just chiong sia...left 500m my right leg also pull a bit..then I was like.."come on..come on not long only" began to talk to myself. Once I crossed the finish line, I jump and hit the board with "FINISH" the word.. on my watch was 2hr 40 mins!!! hopefully the official time records didnt screw up...ahaha...was quite pleased with myself=P..hehe..ORD run sia!!!..haha

Fireworks 2008

On last Friday, went to marina bay late and all..cuz james and val to wait for me and ly....anw we got the in house seats at the food court and MS. Found a young boy thts quite cute and the fireworks were like 30 mintues late man!!!....haha better than the NDP ones but like Ly said after awhile kinda boring....might be catch 2 much fireworks le=X...maybe should go to the platform to catch better cuz with the sound effects better. We went to the Irish pub at MS to chill than just nice met up with james frenz..iphy,melvin and joseph...haha and suddenly realised tht I am kinda left out being the only C out of the SRs there...haha...but ok lah..trying to deal with meeting up new people..must improve my socialising skills =X...haha...so hang out and eat supper till real late at makan sutra there lor...after tht went home le...haha interesting nite out thou=P

UPDATES

This week is going to be shiong to the max man!!! with Range and AHM on this sunday...siow leh...lol...haha anw this weekend had been a rather chill lax weekend lor...and oh! singapore got into the finals and they already confirm a silver le!! ZAI sia!!! though I think they are going to be pawned by the chinese=p

Anw dreamt of u again...dreamt that u realised what u did and was sorry for it...I am not angry already but just maybe its a bit of pride that I dont want to give in anymore but rather I felt that its always a one way thing. Its quite a pity that it had come to this...maybe u are bz as usual...hah but doubt u will realise there is a problem between us as of now...somehow feel that we are both walking different ways le...but in any case, u had always created a lasting impression on me=)

Hopefully can run AHM below 2 hr 45 mins sia!!then can get 3 days OFF!!!! 118 days to ORD=D

Lack of confidence, impulsiveness, ego-centric, have high expectations on others, stubbornness, insecurity...these are just some the many flaws I have that I realized for the past few days. maybe one of the many reason why I always think a lot of things was that I am afraid of failing, afraid of this and that was largely due to my lack of confidence as pointed out by fishy. With that my lack of security comes in and got me panic over the smallest problems at times...Nowadays I am also getting a little high-headed, must learn how to accept others' opinions as well as reasons. Once I can managed that, I can pick out the good and the bad from their ideas. I think with this ego-centric thinking , it set off the high expectations on others...especially the ones that are around me. And soon I set a particular standard for them to reach and if they don't, I get bothered by it and stuff. Then I forgot that people have their own characters and that's wad made them unique and all.

As for my future, like what Kenneth said that day, don't think and worry so much..u generally know the idea le...now just go along and experience the changes then see whether there is a need to change the plan half way.

As for her, its just all about me having more confidence in myself as well as try to think of the other party as well as learning how to let go a lot of the various insecurities that I have. jolene said smthg quite good, aiyah why are u rushing...just take ur time to get to know her better...then it dawn to me...the chase is not over yet this is not the ending so just keep on what I am doing and enjoy every minute of it. And thts the impulsiveness habit thats happening as well as the over sensitive part.

WEIRD!!...

Recently got to talk with an old friend of mine from tuition centre and it seems like she started msg-ing me often...so ok ok....my alarm bells started ringing!!!danger danger.....yesterday night she asked me to call her...then ok lah call lor...call then talk for quite awhile...then she asked me when i bk out...so i say like fri. sat . and sun. lor...and she was like' huh..then like tht i can only talk to u on these days only ah'.... i was like...woah..choto matei...tht sounds weird man*thinking in my head*...then this morning she asked for help over her school work...ok...maybe its zi zao becuz i last time juz say tht if she need some1 to type..i can do it lor...now doesn't tht sounds weird?? for someone tht i nvr contact for 3 years le...OMG is she hitting on me?...lol...nah cannot be lah...no no...lol....think i think too much lah=P

Yesterday went to watch the dark knight...actually in a way I drag pig down to watch with me and I really wanted to watch it lor...so I drag her down even when she is scared of sudden scenes=p..didnt know it was tht bad till we watched the movie!!...haha. Anw the movie was really nice man! Heath ledger really played out the joker really well..psychotic yet at times logical and unable to read thru his mind and getting humans as his pawns against batman and treating gotham city as his playground. Ultimate sia...Pig was like from the start of the movie all the way to the end..constantly grabbing arm, at times sinking her nails into me...wad the...lucky i strong=P...lol...but seriously finding her everytime I meet up with her that she is getting cuter...compared to the past lah...or it might be I never really noticed then...lol...haha. ok so now its offical: PIG u are just CUTE!!=X...haha...

Music And Lyrics

Yesterday night, went online to watch the above movie. Woah it was great man!...lol...the main song was like...woohoo..." fuko mode"..."All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love"...lol...oops over absorbed in it le..=P...it was a very nice song man...listen to the lyrics!!!!woah... I am really bowled over..maybe it reflects my thinking or wad lor...anw my fren recommend me to watch lor...and..seriously the song pawned the movie in my opinion...lol...

hmm...suddenly realised that my blog like me is feeling kinda lonely up there...lol..random thoughts=P...

Woah..another week has passed....dun know why..this week super tired sia...dsdn't really do anything much sia...accept for the late night met. data collection...must be never sleep enough and today ran 14km..wah kao...whole body weak liao=P..on sunday still got to cover Asean Ministerial Meeting duties....there goes my rest man...I dun care sia...on the 28th and 29, going to use my off at all cost!!!..haha...compensate...lol...

I think I am exepecting quite a lot nowadays..regardless friend or family...sianz dun know what is happening to me sia...sucks...recently started on the stocks market...thought shouldn't be a prob. adjusting to it...I was wrong sia...wah...super demoralised man.....realised that the road I am going to take...is going to be very painful man....but I got ur support!!! with it I am sure I can do it de!!!!=P

Anw, there is one thing that being in camp is quite relaxing...its that there is no PS!!!!!!haha...that's the only plus point lor=D

Still cannot find a new and suitable blogskin=S

Sometimes I just want u to contact me, and at times I wish that u will talk about more than the mundane things, wish that u will not contact me only when something happens...but rather bring about news of joys and happiness...Or am I asking too much...expecting too much again...or like wad the others treat me as...only when there are problems...

Part 2

'I will never love again'..that's what everyone likes to say after a break-up or something or rather ' Chey! who likes girls!! they are so hard to understand! be gay better'...lol...haha thats wad I used to say and until recently my friend also said that...lol...but seriously, these are just all faux pax..usually those who says it are the direct opposite of these phrases lor...haha...Just now, the female lead wanted to end her life, but like all logical and sane person will say..Xiao eh!...haha.. I also will say that lor but can understand the pain lah. It's like this particular person disappear from your life...taking away all the times that both shared, taking the times when there is someone there, taking the times where all that matters in the world was that person...and at the same time there will be a zillion questions in your head "Is she/he ok?" , "Why did this had to happen to me?" , " Did I do something wrong ?" , " When will you contact me?", " this isn't what u said earlier, so why?"....and so on and so forth....hahaha..so as u can see its kinda heavy traffic in the mind.

Oh and the movie also made realised one thing..is that sometimes just take things simple, dont need to go looking for it, dun need to keep working hard for it....this is just another river where there will be a particular boat house that is suitable for your wonderful boat...instead of keep looking at the water or admire others' having boat houses..why not see the sky?, hear the sounds of nature, or observe the fishes in the water...there is so many things in the world that we dont realised because we are stuck in looking for that boat house...for now just enjoy the times when u dun have a boat house , because once u had it..u might never want to go back to those times already.

Lol....so cheem rite?? i m good ! =P...haha anw those are bascially my thoughts when watching the movie...although there are more but cannot remember them liao...lol...

'Sky with Love'

Just finished watching 'Sky with Love', which is a very emo. show lent by pig...lol. Thot I had watched enough emo. shows to not cry liao...lol. Haha and yes pig i cried in the end=P...the last few moments were so sad, how not to sia?!!! Well the show was rather interesting...lol...the couple always seems to make out...so...oh well...haha but that's not the point. In the end, the ending was not the kind of down to earth ending that I thot it will be. Because in the end, she chose to go with her 1st love and the one who gave her so much pain at 1st. I always got the thinking that sometimes or rather in life, most usually ended up with the one that treated them the best and all...so ok I was a bit taken aback by the ending...haha...

Then, being an emo person that I am..okok I better try to get rid of this tag liao...lol...its not a good reputation to have that sia...haha. There were a lot of thoughts that got thru my mind lor...

1) Somehow or rather one's 1st love will always have an impact on your life, be it literally being with you or a small bit of that person is in you. For me there are still some bits of her in me that I cannot really shake it off...lol...its like just be a part of me for so long...be it emotions or fonts or the way I expressed myself.

2)Sometimes being the ultimate nicest and goodest person don't always get what they want...so we should all become bad guys!!!...lol...haha of course thats was just a joke lah...be bad guy should go learn from joker in the upcoming batman movie..XP..digressing liao...like the 2nd person she dated, he was ever so nice and understanding but he didnt get along with her in the end as well. I am not saying that one should become a bad person lah or a selfish one...if one feels that a particular person is worth loving, then even if there is no reciprocation..its your own choice de leh..well who says we can have everything in this world sia...But again this type of complex emotions is very crazy and hard to handle...its like u are always being pulled on both ends...maybe that's why I became so tall...haha

4) ' If you are really meant to be together, even after a break -up, you will still be together'. this is one of the phrases that was said during the movie. Well, although I sometimes think of this as a rather pyschological way of consoling yourself=p...if one thinks like this, then of course life is going to be so much happier.

"What is your view of yourself?"

The worse enemy u can ever fight is yourself...that's what actually happened to one of my close buds in NS. Recently, he was posted out to another unit and that he couldn't cope with the environment there. Then somehow he broke down and cause a huge uproar among the other unit as our side the big shots...He was even referred to the IMH for psychiatric consultations as well sia...Just now made a call to him, good to know that he is fine and all. Apparently, the problem was that he couldn't cope with the change of environment and yet he felt that he had to live up to other's expectations. Well...hopefully that he can reach his decision soon. He told me that the psychiatrist asked him a very good question, " What is your view about yourself?"..he told me that he was stunned over that question and till now he is still thinking about it. This also makes me think about it as well...it's quite interesting that in life, even at this age there are people whom do not really know about themselves and what they want. Sad to say, I also don't really know as well...lol...haha or maybe I already know but I am too afraid of the future to go by it...Dunno whether what I am doing now is also the right thing...actually a lot of it I dun even know sia...but like what allen says in d-gray man.." just keep walking"....maybe one day i will know the answer to the questions in my life...

And sorry sam for asking u out so late at night and I know u are dead tired and still bored u with all those..life sucks comments and all. Will make it up to u the next time we meet up=D...

Going on a 'flight'...

On saturday, went to the Singapore Flyer with zhenni...well it was kinda cool and all, though the ride was rather short man!! it was suppose to be 30 bucks!!! so its like 1 dollar per minute...wad the...lol...and we had super poor time management sia..almost late for the ride...lol...but there were pros and cons cuz we got on the less packed capsule...lol...

looking good with the city skyline behind=D
cool art..or rather cute=P

my dessert..super sour :S....


our dinner....

Hers...much nicer and oh...macha powder is salty...bleah...

this is not my idea...seriously..i look dumb



NDP rehearsal!!! i understand ur feelings guys!!


near the door!!!..help!!! Further showcase me being rather tall=P



so overall it was fun and amusing as well...hmm...at the end sent her home, thought wanted to go somewhere and chill cuz i didnt want to go home early=P...i am a night owl leh...lol...anw saw this choco shop...looks cool...one day will go and try...lol...anw answered a question wrongly in the end, shit...but anw what will come will come lor..isn't